Public Rope Bunny: Hathor’s Update
- Luna Robbie
- Nov 8, 2022
- 16 min read
36 androsexual white cis female, submissive.
🔗 HATHOR LINKS | fetlife
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Luna
Lovers, we have a very special treat to come. We have a past guest with us for an update. So if you're a past guest out there and you have not yet received my email, check your spam folder. And second, maybe it's not coming yet. I'm kind of going slowly but surely through, 180 of you. We have guest today, number 151, tucked in the hello Kitty tent.
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Luna
Hawthorne six three. Parker is back to tell us what has been happening since the podcast. January 14th came out to maybe record a few weeks before, then catch us up. It's been eight months and a little bit before we go there, how about you recap your life six stories for us in like three sentences?
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Hathor
Okay, cool. Okay. When you said eight months, I just got dizzy because that whole time I've been living out of a suitcase, I was like, God, has it been literally eight months? I'm like, I'm a cancer moon. This isn't my style. I want to be at home. Okay, one grow Catholic, two super kinky rope bottoms, submissive. Identifying three I like linking kink, sex, art and creativity in the world.
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Luna
Yeah, and I would add erotic photography specifically to the middle.
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Hathor
Yeah. Right. Yeah. The comics. Yes. Yeah.
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Luna
Okay. Thanks for playing that game with me. Yeah. You know, it's funny, since we've heard from you what has happened, what have you been doing? And specifically what I've been writing about experiencing you. They can tell us everything.
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Hathor
Oh, man. It's so really what's been super exciting for me is that I feel like I'm finally stepping into my identity as a rock bottom, as somebody who does suspensions and does rope bottoming for rope bondage on a regular basis. And that is so fun. And it's something I've dreamed about and wanted for a long time. Started right before the pandemic, and then it all shut down.
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Hathor
And so now I'm like blossoming into that. And that has unleashed this whole other side of my creative expression as a writer. So my main time partner I met on FET life, which is a fetish website, if anyone's Facebook for gangsters. Yes. When I first encountered Foot Life, it felt like walking into a party where there were like a lot of like genitalia just on display, and I was like, okay, so that's the party where all the things are happening here that I want to involve myself with.
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Hathor
But what I've done now is I went out to like the back patio at the party where it's not quite so loud, and that back patio I'm equating to. There are some amazing bloggers on. There are people who are writing kinky posts that are engaging in discussion with people, and also amazing kinky photographers who are able to post freely and not worry about censorship for body parts.
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Hathor
So that has unleashed the side of me where I've been documenting my rope journey, my rope process, and it's been so fun. And I've been discovering that for me, erotica writing is most easily flows when it is nonfiction. So it's kind of like gently embellished Journal entry is basically like documents of what happened. And yeah, it's been really that's been really fun.
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Luna
And you embellish them. I'm like, you're no.
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Hathor
No, no, oh no. I mean the embellished in terms of like adding details, like getting into the texture. No, it's completely true. I like to fill in the all the corners of the painting.
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Luna
Well, I'm excited for you to share on this, is that you're getting a lot of engagement and community, and it's the kind of community I've been seeking. And so it sounds like it's a safe space for all of this to happen, which is a very different narrative from the life. But I've heard about and all of the just like random fear I have.
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Luna
And then my visual overload when I look at that dark page, it's hard to look at.
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Hathor
Yeah, yeah, I was, I was thinking about I didn't really plan anything to say for this, but I was thinking back patio at Fort Life because I always just feel like the back patio at the party is the safe place for the introverts to go and have the deeper conversations that I'm more interested in. It's a little quieter, it's less stimulating and not really describes my experience.
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Hathor
So yeah, we can roast more. Yeah, it's like that's where all the fun stuff is happening.
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Luna
That pops up if there is one. Yeah. And if you work and smoke.
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Hathor
Weed exactly like all this, if you really want to do it at the back patio, you can go into the like Dick pic, dick pics. You can go visit that part of the party and that is fine. But for me, I've been really enjoying the engagement, like you said. So what I've noticed it is a very it's a pretty clunky user interface, and the way that has had a positive impact for me is that it's sort of like once you get there, you kind of want to hang out.
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Hathor
Like once you click over to something, you're like, well, I might as well read this seven minute blog post. I might as well right along a heartfelt response. And I do think that even though it's not inherently vulnerable to go on a kink site, you don't have to post your face. You don't have to share your deepest desires, but you do have the opportunity to do that.
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Hathor
And so the people I'm starting to connect with and attract are the people who, you know, post a picture from play and then write a paragraph about it, what it meant to them, or people who will reply in very heartfelt ways. To me, sharing my more vulnerable or more personal sides of my experiences. And that's where, like you're saying, the engagement and like people always talk about engagement.
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Hathor
Engagement. And I'm like, oh God, I don't I don't know how to engage me. Like, I don't know what the trick is, but somehow, by just organically sharing what I feel like sharing in the way that I want to share it, and replying when people answer back. I've started to get in some really great conversations with there's this like doll over in Germany who does a lot of like bimbo role playing I've been connected with.
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Hathor
There's this Canadian kind of like daddy chick who is like this rad feminist hairdresser who, like, there's just been these points of contact with people where I feel like I'm truly sharing myself and I'm like, yeah, you've seen my boobs, too, because there's a lot of amazing erotic photography on here. So it's very personal, but it does feel safe.
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Hathor
And I do encounter I encounter sometimes unwanted types of attention or unwanted messages. And I simply handle that by, you know, blocking them or having a boundary or asking a question like, what do you think is going to happen from you saying that to me? You know, so I don't like to spend a ton of attention on the unwanted aspects of it.
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Luna
Said to use your energy for the people that exist in your mediocre.
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Hathor
That is a great question. It depends honestly, because I'm a teacher, I have this. I'm teaching straight of mind. What if I feel like there's receptivity there? My perceived potential for them to truly listen to me? Then I will engage with a question or I'll say, hey, are you aware that could come across this way? If it's responded to with defensiveness or any type of like shitty attack energy, then I just block them.
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Hathor
But I have had a couple of really great successes with that as well, where I drew a boundary with someone and they've continued to follow me and engage with my stuff, and it was fine. And that's amazing, I know.
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Luna
Oh, boundary wins. I finally realized recently that, like a lot of times when I make boundaries of what excluded people. Yeah. So I understand here that I didn't understand a little bit ago. I'd like to hear from you. Have any of these experiences led to anything you you care to just like a like overview about or share details of oh.
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Hathor
Like actual sexy IRL experiences. So yes, there's two that come to mind. One is I went and did a photo shoot with a rope photographer in the Bay area. The silence. He's pretty well known. He does amazing job. He's dominant in forever. And so he posted something. And then somebody saw that, asked me a question about it, and he and I have been tying once a week.
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Hathor
So he does suspensions with me or ties me. And that relationship has developed into including a sexual element and also a personal element. And it's been really, really fun to just allow it to unfold. And it's feeding me in all these amazing ways, and it's very energizing. I know it's a big fuck, yes, because it's sort of feels like for a long time, that particular nutrient, my submissive side, my rock bottom side, like, really wasn't being fed.
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Hathor
I wasn't getting that nutrient. And now I'm like, this is juicy. It feels awesome.
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Luna
It's specifically, can I just going to parties? Oh yeah. Fuck in front of people and been like, you're fucking got a self. Yes.
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Hathor
Yeah. So a lot of rope. Yes. Yeah. Just so yeah I'm like I'm, I'm thinking me kind of PG but no. All right. So a lot of rope suspension stuff does not incorporate sexual play. It's very very common for people to focus on other aspects of it. The way.
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Luna
That experience, the way that.
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Hathor
I like to play in rope is I like to have I like to get dangled from the ceiling, slapped around an orgasm. Yeah. And that is what we do when we play in public. So we've been to some play parties. I have some erotica writings about this on my life that document those experiences. My name Hathor h a t h o r.
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Hathor
And there's two underscores on either side because the regular one was taken. But anyway, you'll find me, and.
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Luna
We'll just make it copy and paste.
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Hathor
Yeah, we can make it really make it really, really easy. So that's. Yeah, that's been an amazing just amazing. And actually the other night we went to this is fun. So we went to a party where it's a smaller units, you know, it's an apartment, it's a more intimate space. And he dangled me from the ceiling with my feet up and like made me come upside down, which I'd never.
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Hathor
I was like, I don't know if I can come opposite the direction of gravity. And we couldn't take a picture because of it's a private party. But so he made me come upside down and the party got really quiet when we started, like getting into it, like everybody was watching. And at the end all these people were like, oh, thank you so much for your vulnerability.
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Hathor
And they could hear me like, we have a dynamic thing when we play, where I have to ask him if I can orgasm. So it's like, can I come, daddy? All this stuff. So they're hearing very bizarre, very specific stuff about the way that we play. And afterward these people were like, wow, it's so vulnerable, so brave. And I was like.
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Luna
What doesn't that what we're here to do?
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Hathor
Yeah. Also, I was like, no, no, no, no, no it doesn't. To me it doesn't register. That does actually not okay. Register as vulnerable. What it does register as is they're the extras and they're the background in my fantasy I mean exactly. I'm like, no, thank you for giving me the feeling of being watched, which turns me on.
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Luna
Say my pleasure. Yeah, totally. It's like my pleasure is such a good phrase for things like, oh yeah, you're right.
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Hathor
My, it's my pleasure.
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Luna
Totally. And you're right. We totally enjoy without like, returning. Totally.
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Hathor
Yeah. And I was I was gracious about it. I think I just was a little confused now moving forward, I think I know, I think it's just. Yeah. My pleasure.
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Luna
Is.
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Hathor
Literally that. Yeah. You asked the question what is vulnerable for me? I think the vulnerability comes more in private play. When I get to let my guard down, I get to cry and release my body and make whatever sound I want to make, and know that somebody else is holding space for me to have that. Because day to day I'm a leader.
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Hathor
I'm a teacher, I'm a director, I'm a mentor. I do all these big sister things. So for me, it feels luxurious to have somebody hold space for me to fall apart. So that's more where the vulnerability comes from.
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Luna
I'm sure me thinking, yeah, I'm hearing you say this and I'm just like former master was always talking about just showing exactly what we did to people. And that's what inspired about me. This is what I'm doing now. And so then when we finally did go to play, Parsons was a completely different person and didn't want to do any of the things that we talked about.
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Luna
And then also when play parties suddenly had that dynamic of like, someone has to be vulnerable. Like I was like, oh, I thought we were going to do here. And then we never did in my culture, disappointed and I didn't. It's the same way I feel accidentally tricked every time I like, hang out with a friend I get along with so good one on one, like we're such good friends.
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Luna
And then we go to a party and I'm like, yeah, it's everything. Everything's different. I don't understand the and I forget, but that's at play in lots of places.
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Hathor
I know what you mean and I know that. And it can be unconscious. It's like people switch into a public play.
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Luna
Mode when it's fantasy real, or if you actually meant it, or if it was just an unconscious everything. Yeah.
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Hathor
Yeah. Sometimes. You know what?
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Luna
I'm so glad that you're having the experience of, like, a version that feels good. Yeah, but here's my question. Yeah. Why not just do the vulnerable version.
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Hathor
Like, Oh. Oh, no, no, it's not that I'm not doing vulnerable. It's that having someone watch me have an orgasm doesn't feel vulnerable to me. It feels fun. The difference for me between private and public play is not that I'm consciously being less vulnerable in public, it's more the container that we're in. And really, that has largely for me to do with time.
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Hathor
When you're playing privately, I'm like, I can like just fall into a puddle after he takes me down from the suspension and just stay there as long as I want and like, kind of like get to this sort of like catharsis, like puddle in the floor type of state that just takes time to, like, really unfold into when we're playing in public, it's like someone's waiting for the slot.
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Hathor
So you have to kind of physically scoot your body out of it. But as far as comfort.
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Luna
Yeah.
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Hathor
Exactly. But as far as noise or expression or having an orgasm, it doesn't feel different to me. It both feels the same level of vulnerable and free expression, I think.
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Luna
I suspect, I wonder, I would not be able to knock off the audience, and I wonder if that creates a turn off for you.
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Hathor
Oh yes.
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Luna
For your audience. And like for sure you can like, feel like that to me. That's like the added layer. Like that's the reason I would go to a party. That's. Yes. Exactly. Yes. You know. Yeah. It'd be so much easier if I got off on masturbation. Like if I got filled up by it. Yeah. Like if I didn't have to be quite so curious, I would have a whole relaxing life in a forest.
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Luna
Probably best for you. Not that anyone. I would just be like, yeah, be eating on rocks all day, probably.
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Hathor
Yeah, I love that. I love that image. But you need.
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Luna
Yeah, I could do that as a retreat. Right.
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Hathor
Well you're right. So it is different. There's a there's definitely an energy exchange. I'm aware of being watched when I'm doing public play and it does enhance it for me. It it's fun to be watch I get off, I'm being watched. That's why I like erotic photography. I like being looked at. I like being the star of the show.
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Hathor
And also I enjoy what we do so much that I like to share it with people. I like for people to see that I'm like, yeah, I'm having these like guttural, deep, like body wrenching squirt orgasms upside down in a apartment in Orange County. I want to share it. Not like, oh, look, I get to do this, but like, you can't do like, you can express yourself as freely, like almost maybe modeling, being uninhibited, like, I'm not going to be obnoxious about it.
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Hathor
We put a towel down first. You know what I mean? I'm going to be considerate and polite. And also I'm not going to hold back my orgasm or my vocalizing or my connection with my partner just because there is someone here. So allow that to instead enhance my experience and have a great time.
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Luna
So okay, so that's your first fit life result. You mentioned there was another.
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Hathor
Oh yeah. I've been really utilizing I'm squeezing a lot of juice out of that platform. One thing is that if something comes up in my kinky exploration, I like to post very neutrally. In my opinion, phrased questions to feel out and see what people will say in response. Because as a kinky website, people are, I think, more inclined to be open about this stuff because they're already posting pictures of their butthole, pictures of their bruised girlfriends butt or whatever.
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Luna
Someone with a lot of Gemini and water in their charts.
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Hathor
Yeah, major. So yeah, for sure. So. So I posted something recently about period sex. I was just curious to hear back from people about period sex and somebody, one particular person replied in a way that it was like, I'm down, let's make it better. That's great. And I was like, oh, okay. And we yeah. So and then we got started talking and messaging.
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Hathor
And then this past week I reached out to him and I was like, hey, I think that you should come over. Well, we met for dinner first, but then I was like, I think you should come over. And I gave him really specific parameters about what I wanted. I was like, I want you to go down on me.
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Hathor
I don't want to have any obligation to reciprocate. And I want you to like, fuck me really hard. I want to have a release. And also, I know we'll fellow. Right. And and also he asked he that was an answer to a question. Yes. He was like, is there anything you're expecting out of this. Is there any like, hard limits stuff you really don't want to do?
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Hathor
And I loved that he laid the groundwork before we were even physically next to each other. For him to have the research to know, like going in, what am I expecting? What am I wanting out of this? And he also drove 50 miles each way. I know.
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Luna
I know, I was like, I know because I'm like, do you really want to fuck me? Exactly. Not like I need to be able to feel. Not like we're told that those parts you love, but like, do you give enough of a shit for some effort? Human effort?
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Hathor
Yes, totally. And I think that's.
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Luna
The whole thing.
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Hathor
Yeah. Are you going to. Yeah. I get more and more excited. Yeah. I think there's something about because I love being slutty. My definition of that word in this context is allowing my sexual self-expression to happen however it wants to happen with whoever it wants to happen, provided they're into it and provide everything safe and all the groundwork.
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Luna
I'm like, if it's consent, yeah, legal. We both want it. Yeah. Then respecting other people.
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Hathor
Then let's go. Let's do it.
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Luna
Yeah. You know.
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Hathor
Yeah. Yeah, exactly. Give the animals out of it. Yeah, yeah. All the basics.
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Luna
Yeah. If you're if you're in your 80s and you wanna do something crazy. Yeah. Totally legality. You know.
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Hathor
All the stuff. All the stuff. Yeah. But like as long as it's within those parameters, I'm like, yes. I would then like to be slutty. If these boxes are checked, I would like to be sorry, but what I've learned recently is that my parameters, my personal parameters about someone else expressing desire for me, prioritizing me, making a choice to choose me and acknowledge me as a person and be there for what I want.
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Hathor
The type of pleasure I want to experience. That's why it's so on my profile. It says selectively slutty because I am slutty. Where? Yeah, I'm thoughtful about it. And I laid the groundwork with this person before all this stuff. It's like I don't need some type of, like, traditional version of wait, x, Y, and z dates or something.
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Hathor
I need, I think.
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Luna
Pervert to be a slut with. Yeah.
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Hathor
Trees that I make t shirts. Yeah.
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Luna
Thank you so much for sharing your update. Is there anything else you got to say?
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Hathor
Thank you. People can find me on Fat Live in the description.
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Luna
Yes.
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Hathor
It's underscore, underscore Hathor underscore underscore h a t h o r. It's an Egyptian goddess.
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Luna
Yeah, yeah. Okay. Lovers of so much fun creation. Dot place creation.
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