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Luna

Our guest today is a 22 year old poly and pansexual trans mask Latino who uses he they pronouns and is Singlish. They are into praise, exhibitionism, group sex and have a penchant for daddies. Also is exploring his own daddy side. A tattoo apprentice with a day job at a mortgage company from Glendale, California. Welcome, Neptune.

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Neptune

Hi, how are you?

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Luna

I am awesome and I am so excited to hear if you had to rate yourself on a sexual shaming meter today, with ten being the most full of shame and one being not so shaming, where do you fall right now?

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Neptune

I'm probably at a good two, I think. Yeah. Why? I think there's still a little bit left, mostly around, like certain people that like I know are judgy, but mostly if it's just me or if people don't control what they're even strangers, it's a lot easier to just be more comfortable. Thanks.

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Luna

What would make a good down to a one or a zero, I would.

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Neptune

I'm talking to close friends about my sex life or like sexual encounters, or with an actual partner who I'm super comfortable with. Nice.

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Luna

Okay, can you give us a little snapshot overview of what your sex life is like right now, including your favorite parts?

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Neptune

So right now I would say it's comfortable, but in a great way. I have only like one partner that I see occasionally and one friend that I play with a little bit very occasionally. I'm super happy with how it is right now. I think my favorite part is the partner that I see that like we get to play and explore a lot with each other.

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Luna

Awesome. And then can you tell us what is sexy to you?

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Neptune

Sexy is more of a vibe and like confidence is an energy that I get from people a much more than like any physical attributes. So if I'm able to connect to someone and like body language is a big one, then I feel like this person is sexy to me and I feel sexy with them.

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Luna

I love that when I do feel sexy.

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Neptune

When I have the time and energy to put effort into, like how I'm presenting and like spending time on myself gets me more in the mood and kind of ends up like, oh, I'm feeling great today. I'm feeling sexy. I want to go out. Yeah.

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Luna

What mode of presentation makes you like, when do you present sexy? What's it look like or feel?

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Neptune

It'll depend. Sometimes I'll want to be super masculine and like for, like having, like, a nice button up shirt that's really fitted, that kind of thing. I do actually, though, no matter what, I always want to wear like rings or like a necklace or something, that helps a lot no matter what.

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Luna

I love that. Okay, and then what counts as sex for you?

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Neptune

It'll vary on the actual activity, but it's more of the connection. So if I'm having a wonderful connection, someone, even if we're fully clothed and only doing like some ribbing and like I'm just making out. But it was a great connection of like, yeah, that was that was some good sex. Wow.

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Luna

So you have the ability to just keep your clothes on when you're at a rubbing point. Like, are you hoping? I've been thinking about my impatience a lot.

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Neptune

Yeah, sometimes it is out of necessity, but sometimes it's like, okay, like if we have to go do something or if it's like, oh, we're feeling that day for one of the other, like, I don't want to do more. That's fine with me.

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Luna

Totally amazing. And for the record, I do think that like fooling around with clothes on, it's super duper hot.

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Neptune

Yeah.

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Luna

Okay, so now tell us, did you ever get an explicit health and safety conversation or a conversation about consent growing up?

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Neptune

Not really about consent. I had one of the families that, like you have to hug everyone to give everybody a kiss on the cheek, like, even if you don't want to. Yeah. Health and safety, like, was a little bit. We had a very brief one when I was in middle school and one in elementary school. That was more about like just periods and that kind of thing because, you know, like the sexes got separated to do different talks.

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Neptune

But that was it. It was very limited.

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Luna

Grownups in your family, did they ever talk about it?

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Neptune

Not really. It was more of like even when I did get my period when I was younger, it was a very limited conversation. Got it.

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Luna

Okay. And then in your adult life, do you have an example of a time where you set a very clear yes to something sexy that led to an awesome experience?

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Neptune

So two actually happened in the same place. I was a dentist with a friend and the first one was like when it was actually with me was just setting like what we wanted to do for our scene. And it was my first time at that place, but I was super excited and I was ready for a scene and super into it.

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Neptune

And it was pretty like, I guess, timid. It was like a lot of like light spanking. And he was mostly like rubbing my legs and like, just like feeling each other. And that was really, really hot. It was so good. And then my second, I guess example would be it wasn't me doing it, but it was that friend.

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Neptune

He was getting spanked, but the person who was doing it had great arm, was super strong. So instead of just going for it, he would say like thank you and please for more. But he was ready. And that was like just watching like wow, like heart eyes, star eyes. Like, wow, that's awesome.

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Luna

I love that so much. It is a personal favorite of mine. When I'm receiving pain to say thank you, there's some part of me that I guess wants reassurance. I also haven't had a super duper mean top yet. That was like, no, you know, in they scene. That's great okay. Yeah. Oh my gosh. So now tell us please what if anything happens to your shame a meter when it's time to have a safer sex conversation.

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Luna

And in your ideal world how does it go?

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Neptune

Machinery doesn't really change if it's time to talk about it. I just like to either over text, if I'm like talking to the person or in person when we're about to, I just make sure to say if we're both negative or if there's something that we need to work around. I guess an ideal world, people would be more open to that conversation and more like forthcoming.

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Neptune

And like, for example, if I'm asking for, can we get tested before doing more things, especially if there's going to be like no condom or fluid bonding that they be like, yeah, of course, like more open to that.

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Luna

Wouldn't it be great if that was just like the standard second date or something? You say you have it or I don't know, I don't know. I'm making up arbitrary timelines.

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Neptune

I think a fun date would just be going to get tested together and then like fooling around, having. I think it'd be kind of cool to, I guess, incorporate the limit of like, we don't have the results yet, so we can't do a lot, but we'll fool around within those limitations.

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Luna

Love it. Yeah, just touch teases, no fluid exchange, nothing. Nothing till we get all the results back. Maybe I'll do an experiment for a couple months and just make that.

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Neptune

The first date invitation and see what happens and report back. Yeah, I love that, actually.

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Luna

And if you do it, tell me. Okay. Do you feel like you wish other people would initiated or are you comfy? Initiating.

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Neptune

I'm can finish eating. I think if I'm comfortable enough with a person to talk about that, I'm definitely comfortable enough to actually like, you know, have fun activities together.

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Luna

Yeah. Fuck yeah. So now let's go back to your early years, and I want you to walk us through your formative sexual timeline for whatever feels relevant, starting with what is your first sex related memory, or thought or feeling or experience?

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Neptune

So actually, like trigger warning, my first experience in like memory was being assaulted when I was young. I don't remember what age, and it was elementary school time. Our family would watch us over the summer and the husband like, you know, got me. Okay.

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Luna

So what's a good way to talk about how that shaped your whole fucking life?

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Neptune

I think it was definitely. I had a lot of confusion around sex at first, and again, because I didn't really get to talk about, like, specifics. I was very confused and then in turn very curious about, like, what is this thing? And like, what is I want to know everything about it and figure it out.

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Luna

Yeah. Also, I should rewind and first say, I'm sorry that happened to you, and I'm sorry that's such an experience. That is, I guess at this point, so common for me to hear about it. But I didn't leave with that. Do you also feel confusing at what age you figured out? Kind of that it was? Well, I don't want to put words in your mouth.

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Luna

Did you figure out with the trauma like, what can you just walk us through? Kind of like your processing of it since we started with it?

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Neptune

Like I said, at first I was very confused about like what I think I do remember being like like knowing it wasn't right, though. Like it wasn't like, this is normal and fine. But I think after like the initial like experience, I didn't really process it until much later. I would say maybe high school realizing like, oh, okay, I see now, like looking back, that is what happened and working on it.

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Neptune

And I was I had a therapist at the time too, says able to start talking about it when I was realizing what happened. Okay.

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Luna

So back in your younger years, when there was this curiosity, was there a sense of sex, like when did you kind of like figure out sexy parts, and were you able to pass kind of your own curiosity and desire from the stuff that had just been kind of dumped on you?

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Neptune

Yes, actually, before I was a teenager, maybe around like 8 or 10, I saw Rocky Horror for the first time. My dad was like, he showed it to us like it was nothing. He was. I was like, I mean, I make jokes that he like, he made me the way I am because he showed us that at such a young age.

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Neptune

What does he think about those jokes he's passed on now? But he did find them very funny. Okay, okay. But when I was watching that, the scene when, like, Rocky is with Janet and Brad and like showing both, I was like, oh, you can do that. And I was like, I would definitely rewind and watch it again. Like, well, wait, okay, what are they doing?

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Neptune

And that kind of started more of the, the fun. That was like my more positive psych experience with it and the excitement about it. And then from that I just ended up, you know, it's in media everywhere and in movies. So I would get like, okay, like these are in the fun ones of like people having like a good time where it was more exciting and so more of that, like rewinding and watching again to like, see what they're doing and try to figure it out.

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Neptune

Yeah.

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Luna

And as a young person, what was your relationship like with your own body? Did you start exploring it at any point?

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Neptune

A bit, yeah, I was maybe I think when I was 13 that kind of started like through again watching like a movie or something. Something is happening and I would be like, oh wait, what are they doing? And like trying to mimic it. But a lot of times it was two people. And now it's like, I can't be two people.

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Neptune

But then like realizing, like if I was getting away, I'd be like, oh, what's that? And like, just very curious, exploring, like, okay, when I do this, if I like rub a little bit, I get this more. What what? How about like, what if I keep doing it totally. And did you. Yeah, a lot, especially when I was younger.

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Neptune

I would say maybe not like every day, but like maybe three times a week, if I was like alone, I would. Okay, okay, I have time now. Let me see what happens. Okay.

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Luna

And was it really exploratory or did you reach orgasm? Not that orgasms are the most important thing, but just for curiosity sake.

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Neptune

Yeah. No, I don't think I reached orgasm when I was younger. I think maybe that started when I was like post pubescent. Okay.

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Luna

At what point did you start to, like, realize your poly queerness? Like, was it Brad and Janet?

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Neptune

Honestly, yeah, it was very weird to now that you're saying that, I'm like, well, that's a good introduction to that for sure. No, I think it was very early on. I didn't really think about it. I didn't think hard about it. If like, oh, what if I am? Although when I was younger I was like worried because of my upbringing that I would be a lesbian.

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Neptune

Yeah. I remember even praying to God to be like like my family's Christian and Catholic. So I got, you know, the best of both worlds there. But I remember praying being like, please, I'll make you lesbian. And I joke now that like I'm no longer lesbian, so it works great.

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Luna

Will you take us on your gender journey?

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Neptune

Yeah. How do you feel about the phrase gender journey that I just said? I like it, I think it's fun. I think it definitely was a journey.

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Luna

I just okay, I just realized it could be a loaded phrase, but I would love to hear your experience.

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Neptune

I didn't think about gender a lot until I was maybe in high school. When I was in high school, I did come out as bi, and that was a very like someone asked me because I was joking about kissing your friend. He was like, are you by or something? I was like, yeah, and that's all my friends. I was by because, oh yeah, that's a word for it.

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Neptune

But I did have we were like different group. That was all queers, even if we didn't know at the time we ended up being queer. Yeah, totally. One of my friends came out as trans Mask in high school, and kind of watching him and seeing his experience, I was like, well, it actually sounds kind of cool. Like I wonder, like what that would be like.

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Neptune

And then realizing like, oh, that's why I'm wondering about it so much, because I am like that show a thinking about like, I know she's a trans woman, but watching her, I was like, I think, like relating a lot to trans characters in general and just exploring like, my own and like reading about other trans people and seeing like a documentary about trans kids on, like, PBS that my friend's mom had us watch with her because I feel like she knew it was a like we were all sitting every bitch that come watch us with me.

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Neptune

And then we all cried at the end because it was so beautiful. I think that was especially that I was like, okay. It was just really clicking in my brain. Now that maybe I connect so much because it's my actual identity. Yeah.

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Luna

So okay, what happened next in your sexual journey? When did you start exploring with partners, or was there anything between like exploring yourself? Like what? What was the next piece?

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Neptune

Definitely like the first thing that I was doing was like sexting people. Like, I was definitely a Tumblr kid. So like, I would just randomly like start talking to someone on there. And then we were like, usually at the same age and then the same thing, like, what if like this would happen, like and like with one person that got very like full on sexting, like role playing and that was a fun way to explore and also like starting to figure out like certain things that I like in sex.

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Luna

Okay. So were you using Tumblr to figure that out? Like how did you figure out the certain things you like, and how did you know what to say? And sexting.

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Neptune

Luckily, the person like that specific person that I would speak with was very good at, like prompting at the roleplay was a lot like, and then I take your shirt off and then now we're doing this. And I was like, okay, that sounds cool. And it's continuing it. And because also I had like explored my body and like started masturbating and stuff, I knew somewhat what it could feel like and I could imagine what it would feel like.

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Neptune

So I just kind of kept it to like, very, very minimal. I wasn't getting too adventurous.

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Luna

Yeah, it sounds like very responsive rather than necessarily leading the way. How graphic was it?

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Neptune

It was different. Like talking about like me giving them a blowjob and like talking about, like full on sex and like, even though even then I was like, when you put a condom on, I love that.

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Luna

Oh, where did you learn that? Just like in school.

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Neptune

Like for condoms. I honestly just learned from, like, other people talking about it, and they didn't. We talked about condoms at school. I remember one time actually, like it was later in high school. I had a bunch of condoms because I've gone to a private event and they were just, you know, they're everywhere. So I gathered as many as I could, and he brought them to people to be like, do you need any?

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Neptune

I have a but I bucketful that take some amazing oh my God, you're like a condom. Very literally.

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Luna

So you have this online relationship where they like relationships or was it kind of just like sexy buddies? Like what was the emotional component?

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Neptune

It was emotional, for sure. It was as much a relationship as it could be because, like, you know, really far apart. We're just talking over this. We weren't even, like texting. I think we were on like Snapchat or something. But there was an emotional component for sure.

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Luna

And then did that inspire you to want to do stuff in person, or were you kind of content to keep it stuff online for a while, like what happened next?

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Neptune

I just want to explore a bit. The first person that I ended up exploring with, like it was very shortly after that, which was one of my friends who I went to visit for like a full week. But that was a very like emotionally, I guess, confusing experience because they were like during the day they were hanging out with a guy and they would be cuddling and I'll just like be in the room and they'd be like super intense cuddling and like being together and like canoodling.

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Neptune

And I'd sit there like, okay, but then at night we would, like, fool around. And so I was like, I don't know how I feel about this.

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Luna

That seems like a confusing experience. Was there ever any explicit communication around that dynamic, or was it just happening and you were like following along?

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Neptune

I was following along for sure. And also before then we had been sort of dating and then right before I went to visit, they were like, actually, I don't like you anymore. But if you want. And I was like, okay. So then also that whole like that experience from like thinking, okay, they don't like me anymore, but we're still fooling around.

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Neptune

But then there also was this guy. Yeah, it was very confusing.

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Luna

There's a lot of layers of confusion, especially for a first physical experience with the physical part at least. Nice. Or was it just confused? Like, what do you remember about doing with that person?

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Neptune

I remember it was more of me giving then receiving. Okay. Although I went and were they did like my first like, oh wow was when we were messing around and then they picked me to the bed and have like my hands up above, like my wrists together, like up on my head. And they were straddling me and I was like, oh God, this is amazing.

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Neptune

Wow. And like that was very exciting. But then after that, it was mostly me giving to them than anything. Okay.

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Luna

Is this a good time to talk about your preferences for giving and receiving? Or shall we go on down the timeline? Yeah, let's talk about it. Let's start with you. What is your body love to receive?

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Neptune

To receive I just love I love to start with more gentle touches, but definitely like my neck is super, super sensitive. So if we're even gently making out and you go to my neck, I'm like, it's on. I like to do touches especially for like if it's directly like on my vulva or like around the clitoris. I'm very, very sensitive.

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Neptune

I've actually to more sensitive since being on T, which I've heard is not as common, and I'm also a lot wetter than I used to be, which some of my friends are like, I'm so much dryer, I need so much lube now. And I'm like, I got all the lube I need. Great, okay? And I like to be.

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Neptune

I think I tend to lean more towards being submissive and receiving a lot more. I do love to be dominant when I'm given the opportunity. Amazing.

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Luna

What sort of ways have you been dominant so far?

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Neptune

So the friend that I, like I said, I very occasionally see the times that we have, like and see whether I am more dominant with them. I just want to make people feel good and that'll still come out in my submissiveness. But when I'm dominant, I'm like, I have like your permission to have the control to make you feel as good as I can.

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Neptune

And so that's just like, I just get really excited about that. And I want to do everything to make them feel good and hear their reactions, especially amazing.

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Luna

As a submissive, what feeds you the most like? What do you really just love to experience?

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Neptune

I love feeling a lot of the other person. So for example, if I'm like underneath someone and they're fully talk with me, I love feeling like just having that full body connection. I also like to hear the praise and I like to hear them talking about like how good it feels for them telling me like, oh, that's so good.

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Neptune

I do think that like where it's like slut and that kind of like like no one's called me a whore, but I'm very open to it. Oh, I called that.

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Luna

I love it.

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Neptune

That's so exciting. I love that for you. But words like that, I don't see them as derogatory.

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Luna

So that's my question. What makes it derogatory? Because I. When those dirty, dirty names are said to me so sweetly, I literally can't process them as.

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Neptune

Humiliating.

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Luna

Or derogatory. I'm like, ooh, like, it's almost like I go straight to pleasure. What's your experience like? And then, yeah, tell us when you're more limited.

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Neptune

On what an actual example I can think of was. It wasn't really directed at me, but it was during that confusing time with my friend that I was with for that like week. It was very brief, but again, because it was such a like tenuous thing, it was a big hit to me was when we were messing around, I had taken my underwear off and put them to the side.

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Neptune

You know, I don't need them right now afterwards. And you're finished. They were like, oh, it's so gross because they were like cold. Because I was wet. And then they got cold and they were just like, oh, it's so gross. And then they gave it back to me and I was like, oh God.

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Luna

Oh man, that.

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Neptune

Was a good feeling.

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Luna

Oh, that's a just like not in I dynamic. Like normie shaming is like regular body function.

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Neptune

Oh, man. Yeah. But like anything I guess anything like I doubt that would come up ever again. That was a very specific sequence.

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Luna

It just sounds like unconsciousness, like unconscious shame that was like vomited on you and also like, wrong. It's hot because you were wet. Like, what?

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Neptune

Like you're welcome. Yeah, exactly. But other things like, I know, like being cold. Like like actual like being called uglier, like anything of, like, a more physical put down. I'm like, I'm not here for it. I'm not. I don't care for that humiliation aspect. Got it.

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Luna

Well, what if it was like saying mean stuff? That's like saying it in a mean tone. That's really nice. Like mean praise. Is that, like, I'm just. I'm just exploring your praise with my brain.

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Neptune

Yeah, I know I love it. I was actually with a partner that I had when I was like sucking them off. They were like, I would apologize for being a little bit sweaty because I had just finished with work and I was like, but I don't think you'd care because I just slut. And they were saying it in the meantime.

00:20:30:10 - 00:20:31:23

Neptune

But I was like, fuck yeah, I am.

00:20:32:05 - 00:20:37:07

Luna

That's exactly when someone's like, you, perfect little whore like you Festival. Well, I'm like, oh yeah, okay.

00:20:37:07 - 00:20:38:18

Neptune

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:20:38:20 - 00:20:49:00

Luna

When did you first get an inkling that you might want these sorts of phrases? Was it in the early dirty talk? Did you ever read porn about it? Like, where do these kinky influences come from for you?

00:20:49:01 - 00:21:11:05

Neptune

I watched a little bit of porn, but since, like, what I did see at the time was very, I guess, like, oh, you can tell they're overacting. It was a very easy sort of ones that I had. But I did see I wasn't really into it. But I, you know, they're talking a lot. And I was like, okay, some of these phrases I really enjoy, like again, going back to Tumblr, there was a lot of like smut on there that I would end up seeing.

00:21:11:07 - 00:21:22:14

Neptune

And I had a friend who, like, fully wrote like these long, like storylines that I was super into and that really helped with, like realizing, like, I like these aspects and I want to experience them.

00:21:22:16 - 00:21:30:01

Luna

Love that. Okay, jumping back to your body for a second in your submissive self, do you enjoy receiving penetration?

00:21:30:03 - 00:21:31:00

Neptune

Yes. Okay.

00:21:31:00 - 00:21:33:13

Luna

Where and what kind of it.

00:21:33:19 - 00:21:44:21

Neptune

Okay I love all of it. Yeah I think my favorite is in Arizona because it's just it's just amazing. And it's also like I don't know I can't decide actually if it all feels so good.

00:21:44:23 - 00:21:53:18

Luna

So you don't have to pick. You're talking to a person that I always ask favorites questions and I never answer them. If someone asks me what I'm like, well, favorites are hard. And also I'm polyamorous.

00:21:53:18 - 00:21:56:01

Neptune

So yeah.

00:21:56:03 - 00:21:59:06

Luna

But tell us the specifics of what you love about each one. Maybe.

00:21:59:08 - 00:22:15:01

Neptune

Oh, I love that. We'll start with a vagina for granted. It's just I love to get fucked deep and I love when it starts teasing or when they, like, go back and I'm like, oh, wait, no. I'm like, I love to beg too. I think it's so fun to be like, just say it, please. Like, give it back.

00:22:15:05 - 00:22:36:04

Neptune

Yeah. To I, it tends to be an almost overwhelming feeling. Yeah, in a very good way. I do like anal. I haven't done it in a while. That one's hard to explain. I think I like how warm it feels, which is also why I love when people come in. Me. Yeah, because I just love that sensation of, like, being filled with that warmth.

00:22:36:04 - 00:22:52:13

Neptune

I'm like, yes, it feels amazing. Same with, like, swallowing. I love to swallow. And then that way, moving on to sucking people off. The first time I sucked someone off, it was really fun to like. They were just like letting me explore their penis because I don't have one. I wanted to know all about them. Yes. And then they were.

00:22:52:13 - 00:23:06:10

Neptune

Also, I like being told, like how to suck them off and how they like it. A switch that started more as like I don't know what I'm doing. And now it's just like, yeah, tell me what you want me to do so I can make you feel good. I want to do exactly how you like it.

00:23:06:12 - 00:23:15:15

Luna

So good. I totally relate to that because it's such a it's such a service submissive that rolls into top thing. And I'm exploring that same sort of like energy.

00:23:15:16 - 00:23:17:09

Neptune

Yes. And exactly.

00:23:17:12 - 00:23:38:22

Luna

I think every person is so different. So like tutorials for each person are very fun and very hot. And recently with partners, I've noticed a lot of them have never had that level of attention on their cock or pussy. And so I'm like, I've been a little bit more bold and have been like, I really like looking. Can I just look for a while and, you know, like, that's cool.

00:23:39:00 - 00:23:45:21

Luna

What have you learned actually from these instructions, other pieces of information? This feels like great research.

00:23:45:23 - 00:24:03:12

Neptune

Well, specifically for like balls. The first time I was like sucking a cock and then I like, moved on to their balls. I first of all find them so fun to like, play with. But like, he was telling me like, oh, don't suck too hard because I can feel like you're already getting kicked into the balls. Sometimes we suck too hard.

00:24:03:12 - 00:24:29:08

Neptune

Some people will like it, but that was his preference. After then, I've known to be more careful in, like, you know, building that up instead of just going for it. And I'm also really working on, like, being on the Deep Throat, because that's definitely an ambition of mine. I've been able to, but like the partner that I see more frequently now and like, I definitely take every opportunity I can to try and he's he's very helpful in like going slow and like teaching me how to do it and taking his time with me.

00:24:29:10 - 00:24:46:10

Luna

Amazing. Deep learning is so funny because I have found with certain cocks he just goes in. It's great. It's like it's built for it. And then some of them and it's not a size related thing, like it's like an angle and it's not just me angle. It's like the shape of the cock. There's a certain curve that I know exactly which angle to do.

00:24:46:10 - 00:24:52:06

Luna

And like. Sometimes laying upside down on the bed helps. And then there have been a couple times where I just got really awkward.

00:24:52:06 - 00:24:56:06

Neptune

And it didn't work.

00:24:56:08 - 00:25:05:06

Neptune

I know you mean, I feel like the laying backwards on this is like the head hangover has been my like the way to go for a good when I've had the most success with deep learning, I guess.

00:25:05:07 - 00:25:06:19

Luna

Okay, so you've gotten it in.

00:25:06:20 - 00:25:26:00

Neptune

Looked it a little bit. It's when I've gotten the closest. I also feel like I have a very intense gag reflex, and when I was comparing with a friend of like, because he's a size queen and he loves it so much and you're talking about I was like, I don't know if I could do ten inches. I can barely get like, like three inches of the tip of my partner's taking time out.

00:25:26:00 - 00:25:30:23

Neptune

If I were like, okay, it's really deep in there, but I don't know how he gets ten.

00:25:31:01 - 00:25:46:22

Luna

I definitely had a point where I could start to feel deep relaxation. I don't know how to say this any other way. Like, I've definitely gotten to the point where the throat start to feel like a pussy. And so just just finding that. But I have no idea. I'm sure there are better tutorials online.

00:25:47:00 - 00:25:50:01

Neptune

Than me being like, I just relaxed one day and there it was.

00:25:50:03 - 00:25:55:23

Luna

Ten inches though. Wow. That's, impressive. That's impressive. Especially if that's going down.

00:25:56:00 - 00:25:58:12

Neptune

Yeah. Wow. Okay.

00:25:58:14 - 00:26:03:01

Luna

What other sensations is your body into? Do we enjoy pain at all?

00:26:03:03 - 00:26:22:03

Neptune

Yes. I love being spanked and flogged. That's one of the things that I'm exploring more recently when I say recently, like within the last year. But it's been super fun. It's something that I can't do to myself. Like, even if I try, it's not the same. It's about like the surprise and the sensation of like, someone else is doing this and I need a partner for that.

00:26:22:03 - 00:26:40:05

Neptune

I can't like, speak myself. I like biting a lot. I love being marked and like the best way to, you know, do that is like a switch in my neck. If you're like, biting and sucking. But it sucks because I also don't bruise easily, so I feel like I wouldn't have to try really, really hard to actually, like, be able to fully mark me off.

00:26:40:07 - 00:26:41:22

Neptune

Yeah, totally.

00:26:41:22 - 00:26:45:16

Luna

Well, how is your pain tolerance? Maybe that will grow and then have your bruises.

00:26:45:18 - 00:27:03:04

Neptune

Yeah. Honestly, it's it's pretty good. But like at one of the sessions that my friend and I had when we were at the dungeon and like, going all out, it was around Christmas time. So he went to the dollar store and bought like a bunch of random shit to like, hit me with. And he really brought like a full roll of wrapping paper and kind of me the game.

00:27:03:04 - 00:27:18:14

Neptune

And he started doing like, how much can you take and how far can we go until the sickness breaks on your ass? Yeah. So like that, that wrapping paper, like, fell apart because he was hitting me with it and it felt so fun, like, catch him with, like, plastic things that, like, snapped in half, like a bunch of stuff.

00:27:18:18 - 00:27:32:13

Neptune

I wasn't, like, pushing myself. I can do it. I can do it. But like, I we got pretty far into my pain tolerance and I still was like a little like I was red, but like, no more because I had like one little work on, like, my ass cheek. And I was like, come on, give me more.

00:27:32:15 - 00:27:43:13

Luna

Okay, okay. Well, maybe it's about finding the right tool for the job. Well, on this note, we told the story of the first time you discovered that you had a penchant for daddies.

00:27:43:15 - 00:28:02:08

Neptune

I've always been attracted to older people. Most of my partners have been much older than me. I don't know when I realized fully like, I want to have sex with these people, I was always attracted to them. But when I was like 19, I decided to like go on, like dating apps and stuff. And one of the people that I found was, I think at the time, like 38 or something.

00:28:02:08 - 00:28:19:17

Neptune

I wasn't like, oh my gosh, resort older. I was like, cool, that sounds awesome. And he's hot. And he was actually the first person that I had for like penetrative sex with, with a penis. And we actually ended up doing both, like Fastenal and Anal. And also I sucked him off, but like that was a really fun like and he knew that was going to be my first time.

00:28:19:17 - 00:28:30:18

Neptune

And he was very like respectful. And he was like taking his time and like letting me get used to it. And the same one that was like telling me how to suck his cock and everything. It was super, super fun.

00:28:31:00 - 00:28:48:00

Luna

I love also, I was 19 and had the same experience, like with a partner that was very like helpful and I don't know if there were instructions if we were talking, because I think it was a very too shy to ask for them. But I like want that for I want everyone who wants it to have like a sexual initiator experience.

00:28:48:00 - 00:29:03:22

Neptune

That's like a ticket to get to learn, have someone to teach you. And like especially I was I feel like a little bit nervous. Yeah. But we connected really well. I was able to be comfortable with him and like, he brought the condoms and the lube and like, he brought some anal beads to, like, help me work up to, like, actually put his cock inside my ass.

00:29:03:22 - 00:29:07:17

Luna

That's awesome. How was that as a first experience?

00:29:07:18 - 00:29:11:10

Neptune

It's the best, friends who are jealous of me because of that.

00:29:11:12 - 00:29:19:22

Luna

I forgot to say, I think this is the first anal story I ever heard. The first first anal story I've heard where someone had a partner help prepare them.

00:29:20:00 - 00:29:36:21

Neptune

Yeah, I didn't, I guess I didn't know what to do. I just told him, like, I'm really interested in this. I want to try. I'd only ever put, like, a finger in my asshole when I was masturbating before, but then I was like, I like how that feels like more of that. And it was a super nice date because, like, it took me to like an art museum.

00:29:36:23 - 00:29:47:14

Neptune

And then he had like tricked out his van and we went to the beach and like, it was rainy, we had sex. And then once we were finished, the Senate come out and I was like, this is the best fucking day ever.

00:29:47:16 - 00:29:53:13

Luna

What a fantastic sexual debut story. Like, literally the heavens were like.

00:29:53:15 - 00:30:01:18

Neptune

Oh yes. And I was like, oh, all sweaty and like, posts come. It was awesome. Wow.

00:30:01:20 - 00:30:09:11

Luna

Okay, so finger up your butt for masturbation. I did not figure that out until after I liked anal sex. How did you.

00:30:09:11 - 00:30:29:04

Neptune

Get the idea? I was just like, it's there. And it was honestly because I like even before testosterone, I'm like, I get very wet and now it's just more. But was like exploring and like just, you know, playing with myself. If I was on my back, my when it was, it was like just kind of dripped down and I just felt like, oh, wow, it's going far back.

00:30:29:04 - 00:30:35:22

Neptune

And it's like, oh, how would that feel? And sort of using my own, like, wetness as like lube to be like, I can get a finger in there. Yeah.

00:30:36:00 - 00:30:41:04

Luna

Has your finger been in there when you've come and have you felt your asshole pulse? That's one of my favorite.

00:30:41:04 - 00:30:58:20

Neptune

Feelings I haven't. It's like I want to try it, but I'm also sometimes like it's easier for me to come when I'm focusing on my clit. Okay. So I'll just kind of be like, oh, this feels good. Oh, that feels great. And just keep going with it. I'll kind of forget like extracurricular stuff and I could be doing the same time.

00:30:58:20 - 00:31:01:17

Luna

Totally. Wait, so was this your first daddy?

00:31:01:17 - 00:31:16:12

Neptune

Is that where do we start? This too? Okay. Yeah, that was my first daddy. He was older than me. I think the first time I was with him, I didn't call him daddy. And we hadn't really talked about that. But that same person, he had like several times of seeing each other. We had a threesome with somebody and he had mentioned to me like, oh, he likes to call me daddy.

00:31:16:14 - 00:31:34:07

Neptune

And I was like, can I do that? He was like, fuck yeah. And that's really how it started. And I was like, okay, that sounds really fun. And they want to do it. But I have noticed that, like the reason I start thinking about maybe I want to explore being called daddy is because I don't necessarily call people daddy.

00:31:34:09 - 00:31:37:23

Neptune

It's more of like, you are like, I know you are and you know that you are.

00:31:38:03 - 00:31:46:20

Luna

It's the daddy energy I've got. Yeah. So since I've been dating again and meeting people and learning, I'm like, oh, there is a Daddy energy. I'm starting to see it.

00:31:46:22 - 00:32:07:07

Neptune

I love the daddy energy. Most of my partners have been older than me. Most have been men, so I like the data energy. I just like knowing like that kind of dominance and like talking about, like, I want to call you daddy. Here you are my like, I want you to be my daddy, that kind of thing. But in the moment, I don't actually say like, oh yes, fuck me daddy.

00:32:07:10 - 00:32:18:03

Neptune

Yeah, a lot I will sometimes, but when I say I feel like it's more performative, like because I know they like to hear it, it's less for like, I love to say it than I love to say it because they like it.

00:32:18:05 - 00:32:19:19

Luna

But do you think that could morph?

00:32:19:19 - 00:32:40:18

Neptune

Because I, I think, I think so, but I was also thinking about it because I was like literally like last week, like I was looking at porn. I was watching one and it was a trans guy can, in fact, by two older men. And he was calling them both daddy. But then I started focusing on his voice and just him saying it, and I was like, I think that's what I like hearing someone else.

00:32:40:20 - 00:32:43:13

Neptune

So that's why I want to explore someone else saying that to me.

00:32:43:16 - 00:32:46:21

Luna

So here's a question do you have a daddy cock?

00:32:46:23 - 00:32:49:03

Neptune

I do not yet. Yes, I.

00:32:49:03 - 00:32:51:04

Luna

Do get one. Do you want one? I guess I should ask.

00:32:51:06 - 00:33:12:13

Neptune

Okay, okay, absolutely I do again the trend that I see more frequently we talked about like pegging him. And I definitely want to like, explore his asshole and work into that with him and like have that. I like him a lot because we can we have a really fun connection and we are both very excited about exploring and like get excited about what else can we do to each other and with each other.

00:33:12:15 - 00:33:16:07

Luna

Oh, perfect. Can we play fantasy cock? What do you think you might get?

00:33:16:09 - 00:33:28:19

Neptune

I don't know if it's going to be just for like me, like with my hands physically putting it into them. I'm okay with getting like whatever. It's more for like what they can handle. I'm not going to get like a ten inch, you know, I'll probably start with a reasonable size.

00:33:28:19 - 00:33:29:15

Luna

Totally.

00:33:29:17 - 00:33:38:17

Neptune

For and with, but if it's specifically for pegging, I really want to get one of the toys that is like can sit inside of me while I'm also fucking them.

00:33:38:18 - 00:33:40:13

Luna

Have you ever tried one of those before?

00:33:40:15 - 00:34:01:12

Neptune

I haven't no, I want to get one though, because I have tried with like just the harness and the regular like dildo on. And I had threesome with a couple and they had one and so I wore it, but it wasn't my issue. It was so fun. But it wasn't my favorite because I would love to also be receiving some of the sensation, because that just makes me feel more connected.

00:34:01:12 - 00:34:08:10

Neptune

And it's more, I think, like gender euphoric for me to be like, okay, I can feel you too. And that feels awesome.

00:34:08:12 - 00:34:27:23

Luna

Yes, it also, I was talking to someone and sharing an experience that I'd had of going to a sex shop and trying on a harness and being like, this doesn't hit good spots on me. I feel like this would hurt, I don't understand. And they were like, oh, it maybe just didn't fit on you. Like maybe you need something that is hitting different points because I'm like wanting.

00:34:27:23 - 00:34:29:11

Neptune

Sensation everywhere all the.

00:34:29:11 - 00:34:38:04

Luna

Time. And I'm a person too who like when I'm giving a blowjob. I lately have just been really, really, really into thigh humping. Like and just letting that like.

00:34:38:06 - 00:34:39:00

Neptune

00:34:39:02 - 00:34:48:00

Luna

Do you care about style? I know sometimes, like, would you prefer, like, a flesh colored cock that matches you? Were you more into like, interesting? I don't know. What would Neptunian.

00:34:48:00 - 00:35:03:05

Neptune

Style look like. More interesting for sure. I love a fun color. I feel like the flesh tones are, like, boring. Yeah, especially if, like, as we already know, it's a toy I want to have, like full fun with it. Get like a fucking rainbow or whatever. Design. I feel like a tie dye car could be fun. I sure those are thing.

00:35:03:08 - 00:35:03:14

Neptune

Yeah.

00:35:03:14 - 00:35:07:02

Luna

Oh, they absolutely. I've definitely seen those dildos. I have a glow in the dark one too. That's pretty.

00:35:07:02 - 00:35:16:20

Neptune

Fun. I have a friend who has a significant collection of, like, monster cocks and, like, tentacles and like, different. I wish I could drop the name of the brand I can't remember right now.

00:35:17:00 - 00:35:20:05

Luna

There's a couple I've. I've googled them and I've emailed those people like.

00:35:20:07 - 00:35:30:00

Neptune

Okay, I love it. And she's showing them up to me and they're so beautiful. So I just like I want them to be pretty to look at and also like, fun to fuck with. Yeah.

00:35:30:02 - 00:35:50:20

Luna

Getting back to your daddy energy or your budding, shall we say, your budding daddy energy. It sounds like you have a lot of nurturing qualities. Which ones do you get the most excited to use on people like you talked a little bit about, like loving that you can just kind of like take initiative and give pleasure. What are some of your favorite ways to really do that or ways that you're dreaming of doing?

00:35:50:22 - 00:36:10:11

Neptune

Oh, okay. I definitely want to like, have someone fully tied up and just go to town on them. There's a couple that I'm watching. I think I'm like Pornhub, that there's just them, like it's a lot of it is just have the woman, like fully like stretched out on the bed and he's just going for and making her come over and over again.

00:36:10:11 - 00:36:29:01

Neptune

I love I've only really been dominant with partners vaginas. Okay. I love going down on people. It's so fun. I love being able to like, figure out and find the spots that really get them going. And also I'm definitely asking them like, tell me what you want, and I want to give that to you and to provide that for you.

00:36:29:03 - 00:36:31:17

Neptune

But in a more like, you know, in my more dominant role, do.

00:36:31:17 - 00:36:39:16

Luna

You do it like an an ongoing way, like as you're touching them or does it just organically?

00:36:39:18 - 00:36:59:20

Neptune

I think it usually goes from like, you know, making out to like waking up to it. So when I feel like we're getting to the next stage of like, okay, we're going to close up and stuff and like getting more, you know, of me fully fingering them or really touching them. That's my start. I ask, like if they want something specific, like if you really like to touch yourself or be touched a certain way, tell me.

00:36:59:20 - 00:37:13:23

Neptune

And I want to like, find it for you or just like exploring inside of them. And if they respond like if they kind of go like a, like all of a sudden, I love to ask like that does I feel good, like, do you like that? And like, have them be like, yes. And like respond to me.

00:37:14:01 - 00:37:35:22

Luna

I love that you ask that. There were so many early experiences I had where I was like, and people are like, is that sensitive? I was like, it's too sensitive. And then they just were like, oh, good baby. It's sensitive, you know, like into there wasn't the like, communicate. And maybe I didn't see it clearly enough, but I just love that you're clearly checking in in that way because it's so hot when check ins are done like that in a hot, attentive way.

00:37:36:00 - 00:37:53:23

Neptune

Another fun example of hot consent of like still keeping it like, yeah, like it's still through talking. It's still sexy. It doesn't have to be a full pause of like, I honestly could interpret as unsexy to like, fully stop what we're doing and be like, was that did that feel good to say, okay, I think it's fun to stay in the moment and keep the consent.

00:37:53:23 - 00:37:56:03

Neptune

Just a part of all the sexiness. Yes.

00:37:56:03 - 00:38:14:14

Luna

Stay with that energy. That's true. That's a really good observation. I bet if I could like zoom back in time and look at old me, a lot of my like, I think talks and interpersonal things have been from I'm an energy breaker and I've caught myself in listening back to this podcast because I'll be like energy, energy, full, hard, right turn.

00:38:14:14 - 00:38:31:04

Luna

And I'll be sometimes I think Kimberly's made a weird cut, but it's just the way that I actually, like, speak. So that's a great reflection. Do you feel like you've always been like a naturally attuned to other people person, or is it something, a skill that you've cultivated, or is it just kind of a mixture for you in general?

00:38:31:04 - 00:38:48:18

Neptune

Yes, for sure. Okay. Sex wise, I think it took some work, especially when I was like, you know, first being active. It's a whole new type of energy to read that I hadn't before. Like in general, I've read people's energies my whole life. I've had my whole life to work up, being able to be attuned to the vibe.

00:38:48:20 - 00:39:01:08

Neptune

So with sex, it's completely different. I think for most of my partners it has been completely different. So I have like had to work at it a little bit, but like it's still mostly natural skill for me. Beautiful.

00:39:01:10 - 00:39:12:12

Luna

Do any of your daddies call you any type of name and or if someone was calling you daddy, would you want to call them a name like do have it go. What's the submissive part of this equation?

00:39:12:12 - 00:39:33:00

Neptune

Yeah. So for my daddies, I've only ever really been called like mixing it with the praise of, like, good boy. Yeah, that's my favorite one. But for my current day, he always calls me cutie. And that makes me so happy. I love that so much. I think if it was me as the daddy with whoever I'm with, I would probably make it more specific.

00:39:33:02 - 00:39:44:13

Neptune

I mean, I still throw in like a good boy, good girl, whatever, you know, works for them. Yeah, but I feel like I would come up with them more like really like a, more like specific to them. Name. Yeah. Yeah, I love that.

00:39:44:13 - 00:39:54:17

Luna

I skip through some of your formative details. Is there anything we need to go into specifically that we haven't covered yet, like partnership wise information wise? Before we go into even more details.

00:39:54:19 - 00:40:15:18

Neptune

The partner had between the confusing experience and my first penis partner, we I was at this thing at a hotel for like three days, and we ended up being like roommates and we were flirting a lot like two at the time. And then we were like, oh, we're also roommates, so they have a vagina and we explore a lot with each other.

00:40:15:18 - 00:40:33:00

Neptune

And that was my first, like fully consensual, like, we know, like we're doing. It wasn't at all confusing emotionally or anything. And that was okay to that. We got to like first of all that like I was I think 17 or 16 at the time. So that's also rare to get that sort of like freedom, like at a fucking hotel.

00:40:33:01 - 00:40:35:07

Neptune

Like that's the sort of freedom and alone time.

00:40:35:07 - 00:40:36:04

Luna

Literal fucking.

00:40:36:04 - 00:40:56:17

Neptune

Hot dog. Exactly. So that was super fun. And like, that was also when I learned that I love being marked or marking people. But then also that was like, we didn't talk about marking before and I didn't think about it. So like the next morning they had hickeys all over it. They're like, oh shit. So also knowing that I need to discuss it first and hold myself back if I know that that's not the goal.

00:40:56:19 - 00:41:00:00

Luna

Oh yeah, I can definitely relate to being a teenager, being oh shit.

00:41:00:00 - 00:41:01:23

Neptune

Hickeys, Yeah.

00:41:02:00 - 00:41:10:01

Luna

You don't know until, you know, how did that flirting turn into that clear? It sounds like explicit conversation. Like, what was that initiation like for you, too?

00:41:10:03 - 00:41:25:21

Neptune

So throughout the day in flirting and everything, like I said, end at night with our, you know, hotel rooms have, like, the door between them. So we had two friends that were like next door. I don't know why certain, but we we just were looking up like weird porn together. And I'm not going to you can even see it.

00:41:25:22 - 00:41:40:22

Neptune

We're like, it's we just like we were like, well, that's we have never seen this before. I think one of the ones we found is like a person's panties that were like having sex or like messing around. We were like, oh, that's interesting. And then that kind of like looked at some other videos together. And I think that sort of like after that we were kind of like, okay.

00:41:40:22 - 00:41:57:14

Neptune

And our friends too were also kind of flirting and I think, I don't know for sure. I don't remember for sure, but I think they also hooked up. So we kind of were like, let's go our separate ways now. And like very or I think organically for us just like went from like we can leave now. We're going to start out now we are naked.

00:41:57:16 - 00:41:59:10

Neptune

Okay. Great.

00:41:59:12 - 00:42:13:17

Luna

Are there other formative experiences we haven't hit on yet? Like, I want to ask you about turn ons, turn offs and specifics, but like take us through because then you had your first study experience. Did that last for a while? Like, how did it and when did you realize you were poly? Oh, I'm asking so many questions. Take us.

00:42:13:17 - 00:42:14:15

Luna

Where are you? Well.

00:42:14:17 - 00:42:30:13

Neptune

Okay, I'll start with the daddy one. I haven't seen him in a long time, but I plan to see him again. We did see each other, like, semi frequently for a while. And then you know, pandemic and everything, but we still text occasionally and I still want to see him. I want to plan something pretty soon to like hang out and catch up and have fun.

00:42:30:15 - 00:42:49:06

Neptune

And for being poly actually, with that partner at the hotel, they were in a poly relationship and we kept talking after that and they asked me to be their boyfriend, but I wasn't ready for like a long distance thing. And they did live far away. But like through that and like the idea of like being with them while they also have their boyfriend.

00:42:49:10 - 00:43:06:00

Neptune

And I think there was another partner involved. I just kept thinking about that idea and I was like, I think that sounds fucking awesome. And I want to like, be a part of that when I'm, you know, in the space too. And like with people, for me, it has to be like, I can't do long distances and have to be closer to me.

00:43:06:05 - 00:43:12:20

Neptune

I need the physical connection to like really feel, I guess, confident and secure in the relationship.

00:43:13:01 - 00:43:20:00

Luna

Yeah, I totally get that. I'm like, well, if we're far away, let's be friends with possible benefits if we're in the same city in connection.

00:43:20:00 - 00:43:24:13

Neptune

But yeah, I mean, you know, for a full blown relationship, I need more. Yeah.

00:43:24:15 - 00:43:36:18

Luna

Do you have enough experience as a poly person to say what your kind of like ideal style of poly is like? Do you want to be part of a large public cute? Like, what would you ideally like to explore right now at this point in your life?

00:43:36:20 - 00:43:56:08

Neptune

I don't think I have an ideal. I have like not invested, just put in insects dynamics. I've been with a lot of couples. I get excited about the idea of like joining into a couple and sort of being in their already established love, and just getting to be a part of it is wonderful. Yeah.

00:43:56:10 - 00:43:59:12

Luna

When was your first experience like that? Tell us.

00:43:59:13 - 00:44:22:18

Neptune

Maybe when I was like 20. It was super fun. I've only been with two couples and then been a couple threesomes like separately, which I love threesomes. I want to have more sims. I want like two, six, four people. But I like being with the couples, like because they already have their connection. And then they're inviting me in and I just wanted to explore both of them and like, see what their dynamic is like and see how I fit into it.

00:44:22:20 - 00:44:25:02

Luna

Tell us what you love about threesomes.

00:44:25:04 - 00:44:53:21

Neptune

I just love more sensation. It's more to explore more people, like more hands on my body and my hands on theirs. I will say that one of my favorite like positions is either if I'm getting eaten out, and then the person between us is getting fucked by the next person, or if I'm in the middle position where I'm getting fucked and also eating someone out or like sucking their cock, that is just the best if I'm the one doing it now.

00:44:53:21 - 00:45:04:15

Neptune

I just love the sight of like watching, like feeling it and watching someone between my legs and also like getting fucked at the same time and like making eye contact with third person and be like, fuck, this is hot.

00:45:04:21 - 00:45:17:07

Luna

That's what have the configurations of the threesomes that you've been in been like in terms of just people in body parts and whose mouths are where, etc.?

00:45:17:09 - 00:45:32:12

Neptune

I've had both, like me and two other people that both have vaginas or me into the people who when is has penis when it's vagina owner I have not been with two penises and that's definitely like next on my list. I want that so bad.

00:45:32:13 - 00:45:47:11

Luna

Totally. I haven't been with two penis owners at a time or two. Vagina. Oh well, I guess I did two penis owners, but it wasn't as much as I wanted and it wasn't the people I wanted. So I haven't done the experience. Like not the I guess I'm a hypocrite because I'm always like, what is the sex for you?

00:45:47:11 - 00:46:00:20

Luna

I'm like, with not the full sex. I haven't had penetration in any of my holes with two cocks, which is something. Okay. What would you like to do in your fantasy with two penis owners? Like how would you like to use the cock?

00:46:00:22 - 00:46:07:15

Neptune

I definitely want double penetration. Okay, if I could get three cocks to fill all my holes, that'd be excellent for about five.

00:46:07:15 - 00:46:09:08

Luna

And then you have one for each hand.

00:46:09:10 - 00:46:19:05

Neptune

Yes. Just keep it and put it between the I. Actually, I've never really explored like a foot fetish. Would you. Yeah, I think so.

00:46:19:07 - 00:46:23:22

Luna

I really want to go for someone with a foot fetish and touch them under the table with my feet.

00:46:24:00 - 00:46:43:23

Neptune

Oh my God, I love that. That kind of feeds into the exhibitionism of, like, very gentle exhibitionism of, like, just touches that are more sensual. The first person that had sex with the penis, while we were at, like, the museum, they were kind of touching me a lot and like which the sign and weird is like making out for a while in like a more secluded area.

00:46:43:23 - 00:46:46:14

Neptune

And I was like, oh God, I can't wait to fuck you. Fuck, yeah.

00:46:46:17 - 00:46:51:19

Luna

Have you had, like, public sex or is that like the maximum PDA that you've been into?

00:46:51:21 - 00:47:07:05

Neptune

That's the maximum. Yeah. I love idea of public sex, but I'm really big. I'm like, I don't want to make people voyeurs who do not want to be in that position. Yeah. So I worry a lot about that. Like, I guess know when I was at the dungeon, I guess that kind of counts because I know it's going to be happening.

00:47:07:06 - 00:47:22:18

Neptune

So that has been good too. And I'm in there. And the one that we go to, we get the door open and everything so we can just walk by and, you know, we can see what's up. So the first time we did it, I was facing away from the door and just the thought of like, someone could be watching me right now was very exciting.

00:47:22:19 - 00:47:37:03

Neptune

And that kind of amped it up. And then after another time that we think someone afterwards was talking to us, we just, you know, and they were like, I love the scene. You guys said that was so I've had you have a nice connection. It was really fun to watch. And I was like, this is the best compliment in my life.

00:47:37:05 - 00:47:44:19

Neptune

Cool. So I think it had to be in a specific situation like that where I know that everyone knows what's going to be going down and like, it's like.

00:47:44:21 - 00:48:10:09

Luna

What's the extent of your exhibitionism tendencies? So if you were, for example, in, a place based slash art gallery where we're having the best sex parties ever in my future fantasy, like, would you would it be one of the, like, main performances that people come to see or like opening act for the thing? Like, would you be like a focal point or are you happier to sort of just like if someone walks by.

00:48:10:14 - 00:48:13:02

Neptune

I think it's way more happier with like walking by.

00:48:13:06 - 00:48:21:00

Luna

Okay, but here's a question if you're a submissive and you're dominant was like, you're going to be the center of attention, how does that change your answer?

00:48:21:00 - 00:48:35:16

Neptune

100%. 100%. Yes. Yeah. Because that'll add that sort of excitement to it. I think if it was presented to me, especially in like I want to show you off type of way, you're like, okay, fuck yeah, I'm going to the middle of the stage. Yeah.

00:48:35:18 - 00:48:46:07

Luna

For me, it's so partner content. It's sort of like, what are we creating together? Okay, okay, so you've had threesomes, have you had more sims yet or have we gotten to three or more people?

00:48:46:09 - 00:49:03:00

Neptune

Kind of. It wasn't like full sex. It was a lot of like. But like, I kind of want this kind of groping and touching. At a party, a friend and I had been kind of falling for the day. And then at the party at the end of this event, we were like, making out. And then someone came up to us and was like, can I also join you?

00:49:03:02 - 00:49:30:10

Neptune

And you're like, fuck yeah. So then after that, like, where people came and ended up being like five and 5 or 6 of us that were just like kissing and touching and having fun. And it was super exciting for me to be like, I was more submissive in that scenario, and to have sort of the person that I started with, like at one point they had their hands like to their sides, like touching and gripping on to people's like, I don't know what they had.

00:49:30:10 - 00:49:47:19

Neptune

So on their crotches. Yeah. But making out with me and I was like, that was super, super hot. And then people would slowly like just trickle away as they're like, okay, I came, I'm done. Thanks guys. And this went away. And then it was back to just me and that person. Oh, beautiful. Wow.

00:49:47:19 - 00:49:55:02

Luna

Also, as you were talking, I'm like, this segment is entitled The Kissing Couch. I don't know if you were to catch like where, but like that makes me want to make.

00:49:55:06 - 00:49:57:18

Neptune

My couch okay.

00:49:57:20 - 00:50:03:08

Luna

And I'm just like, was there, like, secretly a sign above you were like, what? Energetic signal? Like how beautiful.

00:50:03:12 - 00:50:08:11

Neptune

I don't know. Yeah, I don't know what like, talk to that person to be like, I'm, I'm just going to go ask.

00:50:08:11 - 00:50:13:10

Luna

And I'm slowly consumer hot and like, there was room for more. I don't know, I'm sure.

00:50:13:11 - 00:50:29:20

Neptune

Yeah. We were so we actually we were like sitting in like the backyard of this apartment that also again feeds into the exhibitionism of like people like obviously could see we were making out and fooling around like they have a hand on my crotch and like, I won't point actually in my pants. And it was also really nice because it was a mostly queer party.

00:50:29:22 - 00:50:48:00

Neptune

And at one point before we, we got like very into it. We were just making out like kind of touching a lot. Someone that I had met earlier, they came up to us and was like, just, I just want check on you. Are you okay? Like doing anything just to be, like making sure that it was, like, fully consensual and pretty both sober enough to be making this decision because it was like, you know, drinking.

00:50:48:02 - 00:50:54:04

Neptune

And it was like, yeah, we're great. Thank you so much for checking in. And they're like, okay, have fun. And like walked off. So I also felt we're safe from the.

00:50:54:09 - 00:51:05:12

Luna

People who are like holding safe spaces for sexy people. That's how does feel amazing. Okay. What other experiences have you had that have turned you on that we don't know about yet?

00:51:05:13 - 00:51:24:21

Neptune

I think we touched on like the idea of it, but again, like just like the first dates, if the person's more touchy because I am super touchy, but I worry about like pushing boundaries, I just, I don't want to do anything unacceptable with anybody or to anybody. So like, I'm very touchy with my friends that I know are down and I'm like, we hug.

00:51:24:21 - 00:51:42:00

Neptune

And like, I kiss a lot of my friends too. But I don't want to, like, touch someone and have them be like, no, I don't like that because I think my brain might interpret that as I know it's not a rejection necessarily. To me, they're just like, I just don't like that, but I don't want to. Even I'm so nervous for someone, even in the situation to be like, stop it.

00:51:42:02 - 00:52:00:02

Luna

Yes, I have now spoken to enough people in the world who are like, I didn't say anything, but I didn't like it. It was kind of one of those and I just don't want to be the person that they don't say the thing do. And I also have spoken to a bajillion people that are like, oh yeah, confidence is just so sexy.

00:52:00:02 - 00:52:26:04

Luna

And I'm like. Okay, you know? So I'm learning, confident, trust, building and doing my best to communicate and cover my bases in ways like, I mean, you gave some really hot examples earlier of keeping that sensual energy and and finding the ways to check in. So when I have a good method or system, I will share it. But so what is your method for sort of like connecting with people in building that dress.

00:52:26:04 - 00:52:28:05

Luna

Like what's your current go to you.

00:52:28:06 - 00:52:51:16

Neptune

Want to see right now? If it's me being the more dominant one, it's just been like, we're already friends and I know that, like, we can touch. And then honestly, this is like dynamic out. I'm like, okay. And then it just goes further. And then if it's when I'm more submissive, it kind of comes with like the daddy energy of like first of all, before talking about how like, I love to be Tash and we discuss that beforehand.

00:52:51:16 - 00:53:09:23

Neptune

So then on the actual date again with my I want to say current pay when on our first date we were at a bar and he we were just talking stuff and then after a while he like had his hand on my thigh and he's wearing my leg. And I was like, oh, that's nice. And that kind of comes in with like the daddy energy of like taking that charge.

00:53:10:01 - 00:53:19:13

Luna

Has there ever been a situation in your adult life where you've had to set a boundary or say or no or be like, wait, not that I'm actually.

00:53:19:15 - 00:53:36:07

Neptune

I guess another trigger warning. This is more recent. Last year I was I had talked to this person about doing anal and we were in the middle of sex, but they tried to go for anal and I was not ready for that. Do some other stuff going on in my life. I was very ill. I didn't know it was.

00:53:36:07 - 00:53:55:10

Neptune

I just wasn't feeling great and it ended up being a whole thing. So because of that, I was mentally exhausted and physically. But like, my brain wasn't fully there. So I forgot to say for it for a second. And even though we had briefly talked about like kink, we hadn't actually planned anything. And and I had said like, that's something that needs a lot of planning.

00:53:55:12 - 00:54:11:00

Neptune

I had said, stop. And they didn't. Oh fuck. So then they didn't respect that and such. At the time, I felt like was such a gray area and now I know, like, no, that was that wasn't great. That was a really short experience for me. But I said stop and I said it again. And then they didn't. And then I finally was able to be like, oh, it's just word.

00:54:11:00 - 00:54:20:21

Neptune

And I said it. And then they stopped. Okay. But like, other than that, I haven't really other than like I don't want to remind her of, I haven't really had to be like, no, I don't want that. Okay.

00:54:20:23 - 00:54:25:04

Luna

What did you do after that to take care of yourself? And did they check in with you? And were you?

00:54:25:09 - 00:54:50:18

Neptune

I honestly didn't really into a while after. Well, right after that I was crying a little bit and like, you know, it was like super like traumatic and brought up some past trauma. But after like right afterwards, he held me for a bit, but then it was nothing. And that also kind of added to my sort of confusion again, like about that situation, because I was like, well, I didn't like that and it didn't feel consensual for a bit there.

00:54:50:18 - 00:55:16:05

Neptune

But then he held me. So maybe it's okay, which is not at all like, that's not correct. No, but after that, again, because I was like at the time dealing with some health issues, that kind of took precedent in my brain. But I did because of that, like end up like cutting people off, like fully sexually. Like I was sexually, like inactive for a while, except for, like, my current baby, who I was, I feel super, super comfortable with.

00:55:16:05 - 00:55:47:22

Neptune

And then like that friend that I would kind of mess around with. So I'm glad that I still had those safe people to be with and like, have fun with and have still my brain, like, sex is still safe and it's still okay. It's just certain things are not great. Totally. But then the following year, I did like that was towards the end of last year, and then the beginning of this year I started therapy and like I have since worked on it so much and I feel like so much like healing that has come from from being in therapy.

00:55:48:00 - 00:55:49:19

Luna

Fuck yeah. Celebrating that.

00:55:49:19 - 00:55:51:03

Neptune

Okay.

00:55:51:05 - 00:55:59:12

Luna

Are there any other like turn off that you want to share with us the things that you're just like, that's not fucking sexy. Not jacking other people's together, but just for you?

00:55:59:14 - 00:56:05:07

Neptune

Yes. I guess tickling and blood in certain ways go on.

00:56:05:09 - 00:56:12:07

Luna

Also, I was just noodling on this on my bucket list. I was like, blood hard limit. Well, I guess it's not a hard limit. So what did I like?

00:56:12:07 - 00:56:33:10

Neptune

The two I used to be like, well, no, like hard limit for me. And then the first time I went to a dungeon, there was someone in like the more public space that was getting whipped. I when I saw their back there was a bit of blood, like trickling down, and I was like, that's nice. And I've also seen like very, like artistic putting needles into skin and like, making, like, beautiful patterned stuff.

00:56:33:10 - 00:56:50:03

Neptune

And then we take it out the, like, gentle, like it took us of blood and that's so beautiful and like, so hot. But then also twice has happened where once I was bleeding from my vagina after getting fingered. I think it was just too much. Probably a nail or something, you know, whatever got got nicked in there.

00:56:50:03 - 00:56:52:02

Luna

Micro tears in vaginas. Very common.

00:56:52:05 - 00:57:10:12

Neptune

Yeah, but at the time, I was like, I was up on my knees and the person had their, like, fingers in me, like, like from below and then, but they're like, oh, you're bleeding. And it was like it's like ridiculous, like like going down their hand. Blood. And I was like, no, I'm done. I can't do this. I have to leave now.

00:57:10:18 - 00:57:28:00

Neptune

I'm finished. But I think that sort of stems from like dysphoria of like, I don't want there to be blood in my vagina every, yeah. Not fun. That's not fun in general, but specifically gender wise. I don't want that. And then with that person last year that like did anal that also got really prepping me right after I was fine.

00:57:28:00 - 00:57:44:17

Neptune

But then I bled for like three days because of that. Yeah. So if it's coming from like specific parts me no go. But I want to kind of explore some needles and like I want to see like what else I can, you know, in other fun way. It's just not specifically that intentional consensual blood. Okay.

00:57:44:23 - 00:57:53:15

Luna

But to be very clear, it sounds like there are no like, Dracula fantasies or like blood drinking or bloodletting or leeching fantasies.

00:57:53:17 - 00:57:58:02

Neptune

Maybe defense. That's a big form of fluid bonding.

00:57:58:04 - 00:58:05:19

Luna

You've mentioned dungeons. Do you just go with your friend or do you go to parties there and events like it sounds like there might be more.

00:58:05:21 - 00:58:08:03

Neptune

I've only gone if my friend. Okay.

00:58:08:05 - 00:58:13:00

Luna

Would you be up for parties or events or clubs like that? Like, how does that hit your nervous system?

00:58:13:02 - 00:58:29:02

Neptune

I would be I need some more. I need to be more comfortable with the space before I start doing like more alone activities there. I'm that way with anything though. Like I'd definitely love to have a buddy with me, even if it's like we're both new to the space and have a buddy with me to know that. Like, if I'm not talking to anybody I got you.

00:58:29:02 - 00:58:48:20

Neptune

If I feel uncomfortable, I have you to come back to, but I yeah, I've been going with like, you know, current be this one super close to where I live. So we've been able to go there and have fun and hang out. And it's so fun to talk to people there just about, like, just hang out, talk about anything, but then talk about, like, what they're into and like, see different people scenes and like get ideas.

00:58:48:20 - 00:58:49:14

Neptune

Yeah.

00:58:49:16 - 00:58:54:01

Luna

Is it like late night stuff or is it just happening whenever or is it like scheduling slots and going.

00:58:54:03 - 00:59:09:20

Neptune

Would be good to is late night. But I also know there's just so many events happening and I've been invited to a couple, but I haven't had a party for them, so I have not like gone. But yeah, the one we've been to has been like late night stuff. They, I think they open at like nine and close up at 2 a.m..

00:59:09:22 - 00:59:10:11

Neptune

Okay.

00:59:10:13 - 00:59:20:08

Luna

What fantasies do you have about other play parties or dungeons or like is that something you want to explore more because of group sex? Or how would you like to get to your group sex disease?

00:59:20:10 - 00:59:38:18

Neptune

Definitely want to explore more. I would love to just be sort of like in the mix of everybody else and like exploring with different people, sort of like how, that party when people were like, hey, can we make out with you too? Just kind of that sort of like just mingling with everybody. I think I entered that space with my current bay.

00:59:38:20 - 00:59:57:08

Neptune

I think it'd be the most comfortable as a starting out and a form of, like, him either finding people for me or like sort of giving me to people and having that. Like, I love the idea of like my partner picking someone out to either complete with us or complete with me. I love that I tend to sit there and be like, okay, you go get me someone.

00:59:57:10 - 01:00:01:23

Luna

Oh my God, I love that. Wait, so what if he was like that person? Fetch!

01:00:02:00 - 01:00:06:05

Neptune

Oh, I don't know. I'd be so nervous. I do.

01:00:06:06 - 01:00:07:17

Luna

So nervous, but I would do.

01:00:07:17 - 01:00:11:06

Neptune

It. I think I might be too nervous still for that. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:00:11:08 - 01:00:16:05

Luna

What else sexy do you want to explore? What could be fantasies or specific activities.

01:00:16:06 - 01:00:35:12

Neptune

I already mentioned like doll penetration or triple or you know as many as I can get. You to hear my ears. Yeah. Now that's definitely a big one. That's like one of the I've been trying to like you know make it happen. But I think you know, it'll just take some time. But I know I get it.

01:00:35:12 - 01:00:57:15

Neptune

I just like, I'm like, impatient for it. Come on, come on, someone bring your cocks. I want to explore my exhibitionism in a place where I know everyone knows it's going to be happening. And it's everyone's like, okay, yeah, I, I'm going to watch it or I don't care if you're doing it right there, but I have such fantasies of like, I probably will never do this, but like a much more public space is like a fucking post or something like that.

01:00:57:15 - 01:01:04:02

Luna

Yeah, but what if it's a bus that someone creates for that purpose, and everyone on board is like, they're for the party, you know what I mean?

01:01:04:03 - 01:01:05:21

Neptune

100%. I'm down because.

01:01:05:21 - 01:01:11:03

Luna

It's going from one creation space to the next. I don't know, you know, like.

01:01:11:05 - 01:01:11:19

Neptune

Yes.

01:01:11:21 - 01:01:26:02

Luna

What about toys or anything like implements that like, have you had everything that you want? Is there anything you want to try toy wise or implement wise, or learn to use? You know, since you are becoming a daddy yourself.

01:01:26:04 - 01:01:46:04

Neptune

I definitely want to practice my Taurus game. I want to like, definitely get that strap on and fuck some people with it and make them feel good. Actually, with current pay they brought in like one of those little like electro. I could go into like shock with it and that one's super fun. Again with him. We explore a lot and he does bring toys.

01:01:46:04 - 01:02:10:05

Neptune

Like the last time we met up, he got a few toys, but we got like everybody else to each other, so we just fucking were like, okay, like we already got our systems. We forgot about the toys. We'll try next time. I just want to keep going, I want to I haven't been tied up yet and I really, really want to be like probably start with like, you know, little restrictions and work up to like being fully, fully bound and like, you know, like, just do what you want to me.

01:02:10:05 - 01:02:13:07

Neptune

I'm here for it. Absolutely. That's a big one too.

01:02:13:09 - 01:02:27:09

Luna

Oh my gosh, I love it. If you had to pick between being like fully bound, laying down on a bed versus like a Saint Andrew's cross, nobody's watching in this one. That's not it's not for which one would you pick?

01:02:27:11 - 01:02:34:03

Neptune

I think Saint Andrew's cross. Wake up. I'm like, I don't know. I feel like the logistics of it like you can do more.

01:02:34:05 - 01:02:36:18

Luna

I think that's a really good point. No flipping required.

01:02:36:23 - 01:02:37:17

Neptune

01:02:37:19 - 01:02:42:21

Luna

It's more effort to be upright. Well, yeah, they're both good. It's both like, if you're if it's sturdy enough.

01:02:42:23 - 01:02:44:19

Neptune

Yeah. I wouldn't be able to support it enough.

01:02:44:21 - 01:02:46:12

Luna

What about rope or anything?

01:02:46:14 - 01:03:04:05

Neptune

A rope for sure. I love the artistry of it too, of like, all the knots and like the beautiful. Like the patterns that you can make and everything. I definitely want to, like, buy something to start practicing, like, not even on myself and like or I'm sure some my friends would be willing to help me out too and like add it'd be there for me to practice on them or like have been practice on me.

01:03:04:09 - 01:03:05:17

Neptune

Totally.

01:03:05:18 - 01:03:11:18

Luna

What about food stuff? Just because a couple people recently have mentioned like splashing or food play, is that something that you'd be interested in? Yeah.

01:03:11:20 - 01:03:27:13

Neptune

But yeah. So good. So fun. I had never thought of that, honestly. Yeah, yeah I know, like, it's such like a sitcom thing of like, oh, bring the whipped cream. I don't know what I would, I think I would be down like, I'm honestly down for a lot of things just to express them and see, like, okay, that wasn't really sexy for me.

01:03:27:16 - 01:03:34:10

Neptune

Now I know. Yeah, it depends. Maybe depends on the food. And like when I feel like having that. Totally.

01:03:34:12 - 01:03:57:05

Luna

I also feel like, yeah, food is baked in for me a lot of times in aging and celebration. So it is like part of the sensual pleasure. I just it's only been a few times that someone has like fed me something and it was in a sexual manner. Switching gears a little bit, we talked at the beginning about sexting, but we haven't really talked about your adult sexting life.

01:03:57:09 - 01:03:59:19

Luna

Is that part of your sex life still.

01:03:59:21 - 01:04:19:14

Neptune

A little bit? I think it's still like sometimes I say sometimes once, like in my adult life, I was sexting someone because of that far away. So I think it comes with like that distance. I'm like, I can't actually touch you, but if I can actually touch someone, I prefer to do it. Yeah, it kind of feels like more of like a warm up.

01:04:19:19 - 01:04:24:20

Luna

I was going to say, what about like enticing local people to want to come over and touch you?

01:04:24:22 - 01:04:30:05

Neptune

Yeah. It's like in the current back to history photos kind of love every single one.

01:04:30:07 - 01:04:33:06

Luna

Last question. Yeah. He sends you photos.

01:04:33:07 - 01:04:51:01

Neptune

Hot. Yeah. I don't send photos only because I just feel like I can't get a good angle. If someone to take photos of me, I'll use those and I'll send those. But I just know I just can't do it myself. Okay? But he sent photos and there's that. They're always great and it always kind of be well received.

01:04:51:01 - 01:04:58:00

Neptune

And then like such late and I have to talk about like feeling spicy and like what we want to do next and what we're craving. Oh.

01:04:58:01 - 01:05:02:18

Luna

I love that. What about have you ever made homemade porn or would you.

01:05:02:20 - 01:05:04:20

Neptune

I would I haven't, but I would.

01:05:04:22 - 01:05:08:10

Luna

With a partner you trust or what are you waiting for? Just the right circumstances.

01:05:08:12 - 01:05:25:23

Neptune

Yeah, like circumstances. Like I think especially with current beer. I think, like we both have very. We've had very similar like, I guess ambitions for like what we want to do next. And then I feel like we have a lot. So then we kind of forget like which one do you want to also do? Like we kind of like focus.

01:05:26:00 - 01:05:28:18

Luna

That's where I'm making the bucket list and I'm just going to.

01:05:28:20 - 01:05:29:17

Neptune

You know, try to.

01:05:29:17 - 01:05:31:17

Luna

Pick one thing a week and see how far I get in my.

01:05:31:17 - 01:05:40:21

Neptune

Lifetime. There are so tempted to be like, next time we have a fucking itinerary. Like necessarily work our way through, like the fun list of what to explore. I love that.

01:05:40:23 - 01:05:49:18

Luna

You mentioned that you are a tattoo apprentice. Is that related to pain for you at all? Like I assume you must have tattoos?

01:05:49:19 - 01:05:55:06

Neptune

Is that so? To have like and you can't see them right now. But I definitely have like cool.

01:05:55:08 - 01:06:01:01

Luna

I know it's not necessarily sexual but like is that related to your sensory experience as a being?

01:06:01:03 - 01:06:18:09

Neptune

Absolutely. Yeah. One of the first ones I got was super ticklish. I have a smiley face on my cheek, that says have a nice day underneath. I love it, but that one was honestly so ticklish and that was kind of odd. But just the sensation, like the kind of it's so sharp that almost becomes dull, if that makes sense.

01:06:18:09 - 01:06:43:02

Neptune

Like the like, sort of like the little vibration. But for me, it's a fun sensation. It'll still hurt, obviously, because I'm getting stabbed repeatedly, but like, it's always fun. It's always interesting to me to see how my body reacts and how I feel it within. I kind of start taking note of how I feel throughout my whole body, like I have one on my chest and that one was really interesting to feel the vibrations like in my skull, because it was reverberating through like the bones.

01:06:43:04 - 01:06:55:00

Luna

So I really want to feel like the sensations of a tattoo, but I have not figured out like what or where, you know what I mean? Like, I'm like, I'm not committed enough to something yet, but that's really cool.

01:06:55:02 - 01:07:07:22

Neptune

I think it's so fun. And also just like a great like, especially now that like most of my tattoos now are from the shop that I'm apprenticing at, and it's just so fun to hang out with your friends and get their art and like, also have the interesting sensations. It's always good.

01:07:08:01 - 01:07:13:15

Luna

That's awesome. Okay. Is there anything else about your sex life that we need to know?

01:07:13:17 - 01:07:29:01

Neptune

I just like a fun fact, just like I did mentioned, like I love having come in me. I have a feeling the sensation is one of my favorite things right now is that current baby has a vasectomy. So I'm just like, give it all to me. Come on. Yeah.

01:07:29:03 - 01:07:36:09

Luna

We're okay. So where have you gotten to receive cum so we could do pussy. We can do. Have you gotten cum in the asshole?

01:07:36:11 - 01:07:55:14

Neptune

Not yet. So like, especially after, like, last year, I took, like, a break from it. But now I'm, like, feeling in a much better mental, physical, emotional place to be, like, okay, let's. And yeah, I have had come in me not from current baby, but from my first penis owning partner. We were both like, I mean, I hadn't really been with anybody, so I was I was fully negative.

01:07:55:19 - 01:08:10:11

Neptune

He was fully negative. So I just decided like but kind of halfway through I was like, do you feel comfortable with, like coming on my ass? And he was like, fuck yeah. So like took the condom off and went for it. And it was so amazing. And I love the feeling, too, of having it like like feeling it kind of trickle out after.

01:08:10:16 - 01:08:16:18

Neptune

It's, it's so like, oh, there it is. Okay. Oh.

01:08:16:20 - 01:08:21:16

Luna

With current baby and the vasectomy. Do you ever wear come on your body anywhere.

01:08:21:18 - 01:08:31:09

Neptune

No I like pain theory but eczema. And I'm certain it was sort of like you're turning my skin so I'm like, Perhaps once I have it more under control, I'm done for it.

01:08:31:15 - 01:08:33:07

Luna

Practical concerns are important.

01:08:33:12 - 01:08:34:17

Neptune

Yeah. Yes.

01:08:34:19 - 01:08:40:18

Luna

Love it. What is your hope for your sexual self going forward?

01:08:40:20 - 01:08:53:09

Neptune

I just want to keep exploring and keep like finding things. I think I am going to write out an actual list to work through and see, like what I want to explore and definite groups. I want to have more group play.

01:08:53:11 - 01:09:01:16

Luna

I want group play and I want for us. I just really want useful group play with nice people and spaces and it's like conducive to that. That is my.

01:09:01:18 - 01:09:03:12

Neptune

Dream to.

01:09:03:14 - 01:09:11:03

Luna

Okay. And if you could go back in time and give younger you a piece of sex advice, what age or ages would you pick and what would you say?

01:09:11:05 - 01:09:31:16

Neptune

I think I would definitely go back to early teen years, because that, I think, was when I started really being like, oh, I like these things. I'm really interested in sex, but still had some leftover shame from like being assaulted in everything. And also my family wasn't very like we didn't talk about sex, so I didn't really have a positive view of sex.

01:09:31:18 - 01:09:55:02

Neptune

Like it wasn't fully negative, but it wasn't like super sex positive. So I think I would go back and tell myself, first of all, like, it's totally cool and fun and like, okay, that you are feeling excited about sex and in a way give myself permission to explore and be confident and comfortable about it instead of exploring anymore and then feeling shame about it afterwards or during fuck yeah.

01:09:55:04 - 01:09:59:01

Luna

Neptune, thank you so much for being a guest on Sex Stories.

01:09:59:03 - 01:10:00:08

Neptune

Thank you for having me.

01:10:00:10 - 01:10:02:05

Luna