189 | Primal Body Worship: Jessiy on Woo
- Luna Robbie
- Oct 6, 2022
- 34 min read
30s bisexual f brat with a praise kink who is in a 24/7 D/s dynamic with her partner of 2 years
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Luna
Our guest today is a bisexual female in her early 30s. She's a brat with a kink who is in a 24 over seven dynamic with her partner of two years. She is into primal play, restraints, impact play and breeding. A firefighter from Australia. Welcome, Jesse.
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Jessiy
Hi. How are you?
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Luna
I am awesome and I would love to know if you had to rate yourself on a sexual shame meter, with ten being the most full of shame and one being released. Where do you fall right now?
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Jessiy
Oh, one for sure.
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Luna
Absolutely one. And what about like in general with people and or people you're about to fuck?
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Jessiy
Yeah. One. Nice. Okay. Open book.
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Luna
Have you always been a one?
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Jessiy
Yeah. Pretty much.
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Luna
Amazing. Wow. Okay. Can you tell us what your sex life is like right now? Just a quick little overview and maybe what your favorite parts are.
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Jessiy
Pretty amazing. Not going to lie. It can be hard because of the situation. You know, we would live a little way apart and our work schedules clash. But, when it does happen, it's very fulfilling.
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Luna
Amazing. Can you tell us what is sexy to you?
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Jessiy
It's definitely feeling it. It's that warmth that bubbles up from the chest. It's the butterflies. It's just the feeling of raw energy. Yeah, it's definitely an emotion and feeling and just raw desire. Amazing.
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Luna
When do you feel sexy?
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Jessiy
Oh, wow. Whenever I'm with daddy.
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Luna
Is it, like, instant or is it like. Because if there's anticipation coming up to it, like, when does it start?
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Jessiy
It's getting ready. Definitely starts when it's getting ready. You know, all the grooming and just like a whole body moisturizing and getting dressed and making sure that I'm wearing easy access clothing, as I like to call it. Oh, awesome. Oh my gosh.
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Luna
Can you tell us what counts as sex for you?
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Jessiy
Any form of intimacy. So it doesn't necessarily need to be penetration or anything where we're sharing an intimate moment that's physical.
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Luna
When you were young, did you ever get an explicit health and safety conversation or a sex talk?
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Jessiy
We had the standard sort of Ed the basic biology of it all and, you know, not an explicit like consent based talk until I was probably 16 or 17. Okay.
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Luna
Do you remember what they told you about consent? Do you remember what that talk was like?
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Jessiy
Yeah, it was mom, and it was pretty brief. It was just her saying, you know, you can say, no, you don't have to put up with shit. And that was pretty much it. But I knew that already. I've always been a pretty strong willed person. That was pretty much already ground in who I was.
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Luna
Okay. Now, as an adult, can you give our listeners an example of a time where there was a very clear, explicit yes, between you and a partner that led to something super hot?
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Jessiy
Oh, yeah. So probably the best one would be saying yes to my current dynamic and agreeing that that's what we wanted, and that I was 100% on board. I cannot wait to hear details, but first, can you tell us what happens.
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Luna
To your shame meter when it's time to have a safer sex conversation? And what's your ideal version of that conversation like?
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Jessiy
So with partners, there's absolutely no shame. It's still, you know, it's 0 or 1 when it comes to discussing sex and histories. You know, testing stuff is what our boundaries are. I think it's super important to have those discussions comfortably and clearly, and to know each other's boundaries, especially. We think it's so important.
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Luna
Okay, so now take us back to your early years. What's your first sex related memory?
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Jessiy
I think I was like 10 or 11 and I found with an old VHS porno. I remember finding that hidden behind the TV, and it was my stepfather, and I was home alone because I was sick, and I was like, what's this? And I put it on and I was like, oh, that's what this is. So I 100% watched it many, many times.
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Jessiy
I think I'd already started masturbating by then anyway. So I was like, okay, cool. I was like a really clichéd to the nurse stories. I think it looked like it was seven in the 80s. Yeah, I knew what was happening for sure. Okay.
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Luna
How did you learn to masturbate? And like, when did you learn what that was and what were your early kind of explorations?
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Jessiy
I think at first it was sort of just instinctual thing. I've always ridden horses. You sort of register parts that have. I think that probably started when I was 9 or 10. From there I just some really weird things that, you know, because you tend, you don't really know that much what's happening, but, you know, it feels good.
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Jessiy
So like mostly just hand the oh, God, the electric toothbrush that caught his brain.
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Luna
Okay. So what was the vibe like in your household? It sounds like it was. Maybe, you know, you got to talk when you were a little bit older, but what was kind of the values of the community or culture that.
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Jessiy
You grew up in? Very conservative. You didn't really talk about sex or masturbation or anything like that. Even when step siblings moved out and I could then of my partners stay the night when you're young and you don't really know what you're doing, so it's the noises that happen. And if they were heard that there was a lot of sort of shame directed towards me the next day from my family, and that wasn't all that.
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Jessiy
I suppose it's just how they are.
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Luna
Okay, so you were allowed to have partners spend the night, but the price was you were shamed for it.
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Jessiy
Yeah. Okay.
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Luna
So you didn't get to talk until you were 16 or 17. Were you already active at that point with partners?
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Jessiy
No. I didn't lose my virginity till I was 17.5. So I think with most sort of high school aged kids, it's definitely a hot topic conversation between friends and especially your friends to pair up with each other and you get one calling, you going. You know, I think I'm going to let sink in me and then the other calling you in, you know, two hours later and going, I want to do this, but I don't know how.
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Jessiy
What do I do? It's just definitely the conversations. But they're probably something that we talked about as friends from 12 or 13, I'd say. Personally, I think I had my first kiss when I was 14, and then I think I would have been 15 when I started sort of playing around with preset sort of things, whether it be mutual masturbation, blood, arms, hand.
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Luna
When you were having these explorations, were you liking it? Like, was the physical part fun for you? Like, what were you feeling about, like blowjobs in your own body. And how were you kind of like seeking out partnership. Like, what was the texture of your own internal excitement?
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Jessiy
Yeah, I think like to an extent I was liking it, but probably not so much for the right reasons. I think when I was younger, I was enjoying it for more of the validation of self-worth and for the attention. You know, because there is lots of messy things happening in home. Yeah, I was sort of seeking that validation and self-worth from other places.
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Jessiy
And and looking back at that now, I can say that that wasn't healthy at all. That wasn't the way to go about it. But it's what's happened. It's what I did with the tools that I had. You know. Yeah. Yeah.
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Luna
Are there any like, memorable or formative stories. Pre partner debut that are part of your formative sexual experience that we should know about.
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Jessiy
Yes. So with my past all bar two of my partners have been emotionally physically and sexually abusive with me. So there's a lot of trauma that I've had based around sex. You know, like one particular instance where my first partner and my first real boyfriend and the first guy I'd ever had sex with, and we went away for a weekend with a friend and I was one of his mates.
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Jessiy
And I'd made him angry about something. And it pretty much led to me being right about 6 or 7 times over with his friend watching. And that was heavy. And it sort of really dampened my connection with my body and with sex and put me back a lot further with sexual experience, because it was connected with a negative experience for me.
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Jessiy
So I really had to work through that. And I think that is like obviously a hideous, hideous experience. And I would never wish on anyone. But I think it's what has led me to where I am today, because I've had to grow so much with my body and accepting what my body needs and wants, and learning to reconnect with myself, to move past that event, that it's really made me self intuitive and given me a solid connection with what I do want and what I don't want with sex.
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Jessiy
So whilst it was negative, it was super pivotal and powerful moment for me. Wow.
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Luna
Thank you for sharing that. I'm fucking sorry that happened. Please share some of the things you found helpful on your healing journey with us.
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Jessiy
Yeah, I had to go back to sort of basics with myself. Like I didn't masturbate for probably a year or two after that because I just didn't want to go through that. So it was just readjusting to having things touch my skin, readjusting to someone else, the chance being on me. I started with my own hands again, you know, and getting used to skin to skin contact, desensitize seeing and having that positive connection.
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Jessiy
You know, a lot of it's sort of like pressure and release, which is something I do with cats when I rehabilitate feral cats, it's a lot of pressure and release sort of stuff. You know, you introduce the new element, which for me was, you know, something small like running my hand up my leg and then stopping and rewarding myself with like two pages in the book I was reading and then, you know, going again and little things like that with small building blocks and then just working my way up to masturbating again and then letting someone else explore my body and just going slow.
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Jessiy
It was almost like going back to, you know, the first experiences all over again. Yeah.
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Luna
Will you walk us through the formative timeline experience of your sex life? Kind of like up to where you are now with whatever feels relevant to you.
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Jessiy
So my first sexual experience, like with penetration, would 17 roughly. And then nothing for a few years. And then I'm someone that doesn't personally enjoy one night stands. I don't think there's anything wrong with it. More power to you, I get it, but it's just not for me. I need to have that emotional connection with someone. So I've.
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Jessiy
I've only ever had sex within relationships. So waiting between boyfriends and girlfriends. It's tough, but it happened. It's. And I think the next one. I was 21 and we were together for a couple of years, but everything was real vanilla until I got to probably 26. And then I started realizing what it was I did and didn't want, and started exploring a bit of the kink community and figuring out that, oh, I did like that.
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Jessiy
And it's actually okay that I liked that. And it's more than okay. It's fucking amazing. And yeah, letting myself enjoy these things that were, you know, so socially taboo and it's just so shouldn't be. And then coming through to my ex-husband and he was super vanilla and that was probably a fairly unsatisfying five years. But I didn't realize that until the relationship came to the end, you know.
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Jessiy
And I looked back and thought, oh, maybe that was a good chunk of what went wrong. You know, obviously there's more to a relationship than sex. But for me personally, I'm a person that craves intimacy and that torch. And if it's not the way that you want it, then it's not satisfying and it does affect you. And then moving on to my partner now and very compatible partner.
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Luna
Okay, before we get into those details, let's go back to you said you're 26 ish when you started to realize you were kinky. I want to know about that realization. And I also want to know about when you realized that you did not just like cock.
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Jessiy
It started off with and during masturbation. And I would like really, really pinch my nipples. I sort of started to connect that pleasure pain situation and then like self choking during masturbation and then during sex, like asking partners to spank me but like really put some back into it kind of thing. I suppose the lighter side of like impact play and sadomasochism, but it started off really light, which I think is the healthy way to do it.
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Jessiy
Yes. Yeah. I would never recommend anyone dive headfirst into heavy kink. It's not safe. You don't know your own limits and boundaries, you know. But it definitely started off with the old nipple pinching. How did you know to pinch your nipples?
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Luna
Porn. Just experience just testing.
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Jessiy
Just test it. Yeah.
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Luna
Fun. How hard do you pinch them? Do you pull them? Do you have a favorite one to pinch?
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Jessiy
Yeah. My left. But I think that's probably because I generally solely masturbate with my right hand. So it's like left is free.
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Luna
That's what I. Yeah. When we're on this train of thought, I still do want to hear when you realized you liked vagina owners. But I would like to first know when you realize specifics of nipple pinching and, like, how your pussy loves to be touched both by yourself and partners. Let's talk about your pleasure.
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Jessiy
So for me, I think masturbation started off with my hands as it doesn't most people. And then when I was 15, I got my first little bullet vibrator. And that was a good friend for a while, but it's like it just evolved over time. And my favorite at the moment is the precious suction adhesive. Satisfied to that thing is amazing.
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Jessiy
There's like five of my favorites that I have on rotation. I'm a big fan of toys, like a really big canvas. I've got a wand that I like that's more for. Like if I wanted to handsfree stuff though, I'll pop the wand on a pillow on the bed and just turn it up and then straddle it, and then I can.
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Jessiy
It comes with an and I can change the patterns on my phone, on the app as I'm going. And then I've got another wand that daddy can control via the app as well, which is handy. Yeah, I think my go to is definitely the satisfy to the air pressure toy. And I think over the years I've learned that I need to start slow.
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Jessiy
I can't just go like level five. Let's go straight away. It doesn't work for me, you know? And the right hand side. I have to start on the right hand side of my clit because that's the most sensitive spot. And then I can jump to the left and then go back to the right. But I'm not sure what it is.
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Jessiy
But if I start on the left, it's just not as good.
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Luna
That's so interesting because I also don't even like until this moment. I've never thought about sides right or left of my clit, so that's kind of amazing. How do you touch yourself? Hands wise.
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Jessiy
I generally go with either 1 or 2 fingers. I tend to go more towards the middle finger of my right hand, and then sometimes that'll cramp up and I've got to switch to my index. But yeah, I prefer my middle finger because then I can sort of with the other two, I can move like labia out the way if I need because she's juicy.
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Jessiy
She's not a skinny pussy, she's juicy. So sometimes you got to move things. Yeah, it's mostly just middle finger. And then I can get a toy in as well if I want, like a penetrative toy, like a dildo. Or sometimes I get a rabbit and I flip it the other way so that I can rub my clit with my right hand, penetrate myself with the rabbit, with the left hand.
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Jessiy
But then I do like the ears of the rabbit tickle. I bought whole as well. That's great. I fully recommend everyone try that. I'm just going to.
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Luna
Say now I need to get a rabbit. I've never had one because I didn't think of that. And although I have used the like one that's supposed to go in your pussy and on your clit the other way too, in the in the holes instead. So do you prefer inside stimulation out, or do you like to mix it up and then tell us more about your asshole?
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Jessiy
I do like to mix it up, but for me, I can't come without clitoral stimulation. I'm not one of those blessed people. Unfortunately, that can come just purely from penetrative sex. But that's totally, totally normal. There's so many women out there that need clitoral stimulation to climax.
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Luna
Like two thirds of them.
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Jessiy
Yeah, so mixing it up is definitely my go to. But the hornier I am, the more I crave that penetration as well. With masturbation, it really depends. I totally get that.
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Luna
So okay, let's jump back to the explorations where you were trying all of these things. You already knew at that point that you liked people of all kinds. Like when when did you realize that you liked vaginas? Let's let's go into that question.
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Jessiy
When I was probably 14, I realized that I didn't really care if they were identifying themselves as male or female. I was on board. It was my first kiss. He was 14 two and to this day is still a really good friend of mine and he knows this story, so I don't feel bad telling it. His girlfriend at the time, because it was a bit like that and I didn't know she liked me as well.
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Jessiy
And so she was sneaking out of class and meeting me in the girls toilets and kissing me. And then after school, I was meeting him at the bus stop and kissing him. So I was a bit naughty, but so they. And they knew about it. Well, they knew about it in the end and they were totally fine with it.
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Jessiy
That was my first experience and then it was year ten, which is 15. We went to a school excursion and it was to an art gallery, and there was a couple of schools there. And I remember this girl looking at me and we were just like sitting on the floor listening to this art teacher waffle on about probably the most boring painting I'd ever seen.
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Jessiy
So I was very easily distracted and I noticed this girl looking at me. And then I sort of I passed a little note that was just like, hi, my name is just she passed it back and then it's back in the days of like Myspace and MSN, AOL messenger. So we write our little like messenger names down and pass them to each other and added them.
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Jessiy
And we ended up meeting up a couple of times, and we didn't get to like the girlfriend girlfriend stage, but like, we made out a few times and it wasn't a weird thing for me. It just felt fine. But it never canceled out that. I also enjoyed making out with guys. So it was just like, okay, cool and best of both worlds.
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Jessiy
I'm down. Let's go. Amazing.
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Luna
Will you please now tell us about the explorations that led to you meeting your daddy?
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Jessiy
Certainly, sir. I had just gotten out of the very vanilla relationship with my ex husband, and I was looking for fulfillment. But I was also looking to regain my self-worth because I had lost a lot of that through that relationship. It sort of links in with how I re met daddy because I've known him for eight years, but we've had sort of relationships with other people between.
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Jessiy
And I got a call out for a car accident one day. You know, being a firefighter, we have to go to those. And I remember we pulled up and I saw him standing there and the truck hadn't even stopped yet. And I'd launched myself out that truck and ran headlong at him. And I was just like, because I knew he had a son and, you know, family.
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Jessiy
And I was just like, are you okay? What's happened? Oh my God. Yeah. And he was in the car traveling behind. So he was the first on the scene and he was okay. But I remember in that moment thinking, oh my God, you're really important to me. Wow. Okay. That's cool. Let's process this now. And so it was a pretty bad car accident.
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Jessiy
There was a kid in there that was the same age as his son, so it hit him pretty hard in. And so I was checking in with him just to make sure it was okay, because obviously we offer, you know, counseling services for witnesses and stuff. And we kept talking and we just kept talking. And, you know, you get like the flirty, sexy messages.
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Jessiy
And then they sort of started amping up a bit and I was like, Okay. So if I asked you to choke me. Yeah. But yeah, no, that'd be fun. I'm like, so if I say, and I was a bit of a brat, what does that mean to you when you're trying to figure out the waters?
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Jessiy
You know, it's sort of coming straight out and saying, oh, so you into, like, Bdsm? Like it's not so much of a thing, you know, you don't want to scare someone off if you're interested.
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Luna
Well, I certainly have scared off a lot of people being extremely direct. So that's a good piece of wisdom I'll take to consideration.
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Jessiy
Just test the waters a little bit first. Yeah. It turns out we were both very into the kink world, and a lot of our kinks overlapped. And yeah, from there we decided that we wanted to be in a dynamic with each other. And he's very dominant, but very, very caring, so dated on suits and perfectly and very protective and we decided that for what we were looking for, a 24 over seven dynamic suited us best.
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Jessiy
So we've gone from there. Yeah.
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Luna
Can you tell us specifically what considerations went into like what makes the 24 seven dynamic best for you?
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Jessiy
So a lot of behavioral habits, especially because I've got ADHD. So I tend to struggle with certain aspects of life like housework. It's just the worst. So that's the way I think where we help each other is like, I know if I'm struggling with that, then he can daddy me. He can get real Dom. And and then I get it done because I know that either something bad's going to happen if I don't, or something real good will happen if I do.
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Jessiy
So yeah, it's like my own personal reward system for existence and I am down for that.
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Luna
Can you tell us some of the rewards.
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Jessiy
So playtime in our dynamic I have to ask permission to masturbate and to come, I actually asked for that because I just like it. Yeah. So if I accomplish a task then I get to play and I get pictures or videos because I love some videos and pictures that that makes me real happy.
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Luna
Of anyone or like of you to.
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Jessiy
Either him or me or us together. Yeah, but.
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Luna
I love that. Oh, that's such a good reward.
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Jessiy
There's one thing that is an absolute no go for punishments for us, and that is no restriction of time together, no restriction of attention or touch or like communication. Because I for me personally, that's more manipulative than it is a punishment. But you know, like obviously to each their own. Whatever people are comfortable with and agree with in their own dynamics.
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Jessiy
So for us that's a no go zone. So it's yeah the rewards definitely more pictures. Video is playtime sessions. Good girls I love me some good girls I love that.
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Luna
How did you discover that you were a brat?
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Jessiy
Well, I've always been a brat by nature, okay? It's just who I am. I'm defiant to the core. So we have some words that I'm not allowed to use when addressing him. I'm not allowed to say like, buddy, I can't call him mate or bro or any sort of, like, informal friends sort of thing. It has to be the be daddy babe.
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Jessiy
And I don't like calling him baby because I'm baby. That's me. How they shift. So I know when I want to push his buttons, I can call him a little bitch, or I can pull a pussy, or I can say, what was that night? And just the eyebrow raises and I'm like, oh yeah, there we go. There's a bot and.
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Jessiy
But I keep pushing it cause I gotta, I just gotta once I get that bot, I'm like, how many more can I get? Let's go.
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Luna
Okay, what happens when you get that? Like, I'm trying to learn how to be a brat. I'm trying to learn a little bit more because I feel like I'm either, like really, really good or I'm like, destroy. And I don't I haven't figured out the playful part yet. Quite calibration.
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Jessiy
Yeah. So I think it's got to come from a place of fun and like, poking. Like, you just going to go poke, poke, poke poke. You poke. How much can I get away with it? And like, there's always going to be a line where I have to go back into my place, but I get cold a little shit a lot.
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Jessiy
I really.
00:28:00:07 - 00:28:02:08
Luna
See, like a good girl or a little shit.
00:28:02:10 - 00:28:31:07
Jessiy
Yeah, yeah. You know, like, you grab my face and re like, what did you just say? And there's me, like, through clenched shoes on archeology. A pussy. I'm real good at being a brat. It just comes natural that then there's, like, the good girl side where I love me some praise. I just he calls me a good girl and it's like whole body shit was like, yes, whatever you need.
00:28:31:09 - 00:29:00:02
Jessiy
Because I want to make him happy. I want him to have everything he wants and needs, and I just want him to have the best life possible. And like, it comes from a place of love. I think being, you know, the good girl side. It's seeing someone that you love and wanting to give them absolutely everything and being everything that they could want and need and having them appreciate you.
00:29:00:07 - 00:29:18:14
Jessiy
And it comes from a place of not having that so much. You know, growing up that it makes me happy knowing that he's happy. So when I know that I've done that, it's like, yeah, okay, cool. Thank you. That's amazing.
00:29:18:16 - 00:29:37:02
Luna
Will you give us kind of like the overview arc of like, how do you call them sessions or like whenever you play together, like your rendezvous, like how they work. Like, it sounds like you do have a, you know, when you're going to see them. There is a looking forward to tell us the turn on the turn that like the impact like start to get into some of like how it goes or how it could go for us.
00:29:37:04 - 00:29:52:00
Jessiy
So so because we get sort of limited on our time together and where we're going to be, a lot of it is like outdoors. Yeah, probably like 70% of our play time is outside.
00:29:52:01 - 00:29:56:22
Luna
Where like forest, like beach, like, you know, car somewhere. Like, where do you find the.
00:29:56:23 - 00:30:21:17
Jessiy
Thing about a lot of like for us, there was one maybe 5 or 6 months ago that was actually an industrial area. We were just parked on the side of the road in the middle of this industrial area. And then, you know, in the middle of. So he was in the passenger seat of his car, and he had me sort of bent over in front of him.
00:30:21:19 - 00:31:02:09
Jessiy
And then we heard a noise and we looked up and this garage door opened and this big truck started reversing out. And I sort of just sat up a little bit and, but I was like, still doing chemicals, but I'm not stopping. I'm just not moving. But then there's like the more intimate side of things. One of my favorite memories of not just sex for us, but of our time together, we had like a little camping trip sort of thing, and there was a fire going, and we were just sitting by the fire and and I was in a chair and he was sitting between my legs, and I think I was giving him
00:31:02:09 - 00:31:28:09
Jessiy
a shoulder rub and a head grab, and he just spun around and started kissing up the inside of my leg and on my thigh, and then, you know, it progressed and he ate me out of bed. And then he stood me up and he started slowly undressing me by the fire. And then it was like it was more like seriously intimate, primal body worship and that full on connection.
00:31:28:09 - 00:31:34:02
Jessiy
And yeah, that was a magical, magical moment for me.
00:31:34:04 - 00:31:48:18
Luna
Amazing. I was literally just about to ask you if the outside stuff activates the part of you that likes primal play. Talk about when you discovered that part of yourself. And is that related to breeding? Is that the same as a different for you? Like tell us how those live for you.
00:31:48:20 - 00:32:14:03
Jessiy
So different they can obviously be together. So I think the outdoors does definitely engage more of a primal mode, but like it can happen anywhere. If he comes up behind me and growls into my ear, it's like, okay, cool, I'll just. I'm in a room full of people. I'll start undressing, I don't care, this is going to happen or music.
00:32:14:05 - 00:32:53:10
Jessiy
We're both very pagan beings and he has Viking heritage, so that's something that we're both very in touch with. So we tend to listen to sort of that tribal Viking metal solid music. And sometimes when I'm driving, like I just did a it was like a two hour drive wasn't much, but I put one song on at the start of the drive, and that was a mistake because I was like squirming in my seat the entire drive, going, oh my God, I'm going out of my mind like white knuckles on the steering wheel was just it was intense.
00:32:53:12 - 00:33:10:05
Jessiy
Yeah. So to go back, definitely the outside does trigger more of a primal because you are you're back with nature. You know, it's more raw. It's more in the natural world. But it can come on it any time. Wow.
00:33:10:06 - 00:33:25:12
Luna
I still get concerned sometimes, sometimes about dirt or scraping my knee on a rock or getting splinters or fucking on top of ants. Like, do you pay attention to that? Or does it sort of like go away or are you just able to? I know some people just like do it wherever. And what is it like for you?
00:33:25:14 - 00:33:43:02
Jessiy
Yeah, no. Like wherever I'm good. I'm not worried about things like that. But he's very much a gentleman. Like he'll take off his jacket or his hoodie and put it down so I can kneel on that. And I'm like, can you just under your belt, can we just. Can you get that thing out of my way? I'm busy.
00:33:43:04 - 00:33:47:18
Luna
Oh my gosh. Why do they are they love belts? Belts are so in the way.
00:33:47:20 - 00:34:08:22
Jessiy
They're the bane of my existence. I have a love hate relationship with belts like, hate that they are there and that they take time to get off in a way. And then you got to. And because I, like, keep my nails relatively long and done and I'm trying to, hate them. But then like, he'll take it off and like flogged me with it and I'm like, yeah, okay.
00:34:08:22 - 00:34:11:10
Jessiy
I love the belt again.
00:34:11:12 - 00:34:14:12
Luna
I guess I love belt off of pants.
00:34:14:13 - 00:34:22:13
Jessiy
Yeah, exactly. Maybe if he could keep the belt in his pocket or something, that would be more convenient to me.
00:34:22:15 - 00:34:23:02
Jessiy
Amazing.
00:34:23:02 - 00:34:27:19
Luna
Okay, so what's the breeding king like for you? Like, how does it live for you specifically?
00:34:27:21 - 00:34:50:13
Jessiy
So the breeding king for me is something the I think I probably experienced every time we have sex is I feel like I need that comb and I need it inside me in some way. Otherwise I feel like it's just sacrilege. I'm like, I need it. Whether it's, you know, inside me, which is preferable because I like the feeling.
00:34:50:13 - 00:35:02:09
Jessiy
I like feeling. These can't get a little bit hot and intense. And then you can feel it, you know, moving inside you. And that is just like.
00:35:02:11 - 00:35:09:23
Luna
Great is the verbal expression of the breeding part of it for you. Is it just knowing that his comments, they're part of it.
00:35:10:01 - 00:35:29:21
Jessiy
It's probably both, to be honest. If we're having sex and, you know, I can feel like because you can feel when someone's getting there and I can feel like he's getting close. And I know that for me, if I like, beg him to come inside me, I know that does something for him. And knowing that it does something for him does something for me.
00:35:29:21 - 00:35:43:00
Jessiy
And it's just this constant circle of, oh yeah, okay, cool. Yeah. So the verbal definitely. But but knowing just that, knowing that it's going to be there. That's. Yeah I love that term.
00:35:43:01 - 00:35:51:00
Luna
What about impact play and restraints. Do those go together for you. Were they separate. What did you start exploring and where has it gone for you.
00:35:51:02 - 00:36:21:23
Jessiy
So they can be together or separate? Really. They don't have to be mutually exclusive. So I sort of prefer like for me as a sub, I like the idea of impact play without restraint because you are truly full and truly just there and not moving. I think there's that control behind it. But then I also do really like the full submission of him completely tying me so that I can't move anyway, and having that trust there that he's not going to type things past my limit.
00:36:21:23 - 00:36:26:00
Luna
Totally. They're two different challenges as well. Two really different challenges.
00:36:26:00 - 00:36:53:00
Jessiy
Yeah, exactly. In terms of like being tied up, my favorite is chivalry, right. And things I've got cops and restraints like that, but I just, I like rope because I really like watching his hands make the knot because he doesn't like his hands, but he has like one man that does physical work a lot hands. And I just think personally that's really, really sexy and attractive.
00:36:53:00 - 00:37:19:07
Jessiy
And I love it. So I love watching him tie the knot. But there's a time and a place, you know. So cuffs are great. Like I've got a collar with a lady attached. And I like that as well, because he can just completely control where I go. And in terms of impact, I am of the belief that nothing can't be used for impact.
00:37:19:09 - 00:37:48:03
Jessiy
Anything is possible. Like books, you know, anything like I've obviously got floggings and whips and I prefer, like a fuddy impact over a stinky. So like punishments for me, more thorough. And then if it's proper punishment, he'll get like an elastic piece of tubing that he's using for whatever he's doing and he'll tie it around.
00:37:48:03 - 00:37:56:22
Jessiy
My waist and just ping it back onto me and. Yeah. Oh, but it's a different. Really?
00:37:57:00 - 00:37:57:23
Luna
Yeah. It totally.
00:37:57:23 - 00:38:15:21
Jessiy
Yeah. But it's like it's completely different, really. You know, like, the funny stuff that I enjoy is it's that burning, that pleasure sensation, but then you get more of an endorphin release from the stinging pain. Yeah. There's a place for both in my heart.
00:38:15:23 - 00:38:23:22
Luna
Amazing. Do you like to have those things? Like before you get fucked? Like, do you like to be a little sore? Like, how does it usually work in the landscape of your sessions?
00:38:24:00 - 00:38:35:18
Jessiy
Yeah, definitely. Beforehand for us and the build up. And it's almost like getting fucked is the reward. Yeah, yeah I totally oh yes. Yeah. That fucking love.
00:38:35:20 - 00:38:43:07
Luna
What else, what other turn ons is there like body stuff we haven't gotten to were just like things you do together. We haven't got to hear any hot stories that we need to know.
00:38:43:09 - 00:39:13:03
Jessiy
So I do really enjoy like, sensation play and I love hot Wax. Wax is amazing. And going from hot wax to ice and then just changing the temperatures and then like feathers and just the different sensations all over the body, like not necessarily, you know, androgynous areas, but like just the arms, stomach, just places that, you know, not didn't see a lot.
00:39:13:05 - 00:39:43:15
Jessiy
They covered with clothing, you know. But yeah. Any sensation plays always amazing. I love worshiping his body. That's my favorite. I think that's where like, the good girl side of me really kicks in, is I love running my hands over every inch of him and just adoring and appreciating and, you know, massaging and making him feel worshiped.
00:39:43:17 - 00:39:48:18
Luna
Yeah. So do you want to give details about how you like to worship his private parts.
00:39:48:20 - 00:40:09:21
Jessiy
Just like gentle caressing and then kissing up and down? That's always going to lead into a blowjob. Because I love sucking dick. I really love sucking. It's just everything, you know, like the feeling and the taste. It just it makes me. Yeah, I really enjoy it.
00:40:09:23 - 00:40:10:23
Luna
Yeah.
00:40:11:01 - 00:40:28:05
Jessiy
Just gentle and kisses and sort of showing it attention rather than just getting it and and getting it out and going for it. You know, I think sometimes it's important to slow things down a bit. Amazing.
00:40:28:06 - 00:40:34:16
Luna
When do you feel the most like desired and appreciated.
00:40:34:18 - 00:41:20:03
Jessiy
Probably when he hugs me from behind when he holds me from behind. And anything where there's no automatic, you know, I guess you can't hug someone back if they're hugging you from behind. And so just feeling enveloped and protected and safe and adored that for me is when I feel most desired. And I know that might sound strange to some people, but for someone to want to show you that affection and love with nothing in return, and to make you feel safe and protected, that for me, is when I feel most wanted and desired and appreciated.
00:41:20:05 - 00:41:30:18
Luna
How do you keep in touch? It sounds like maybe you don't get to talk to each other all the time. We heard a little bit about rewards of naughty pictures. What's your primary mode of contact?
00:41:30:20 - 00:41:46:11
Jessiy
So we're about an hour and a half from each other, but with work schedules it does make things very difficult. So our primary contact is text and, you know, social media and phone. Yeah, that's pretty much our primary.
00:41:46:13 - 00:41:54:04
Luna
Hot could you speak a little bit to kind of the balance of the like sexy sexting versus just everyday love connection.
00:41:54:06 - 00:42:25:14
Jessiy
So it's probably flipped as our relationship has progressed because obviously we're not just a dynamic. We are a couple as well. In the start, it was probably like 70% sexy texts and 30% real life stuff. And I think as times gone on, we've spent more time together and knowing each other. It's probably flipped to now 70%, you know, real life loving couple stuff and 30% sexy stuff, which I think 5050.
00:42:25:14 - 00:42:49:11
Jessiy
But yeah, that's where it sits at the moment. And it's, you know, depending on the day and what we've got going on in our lives. Yeah, we've had individually a hard few months, you know, we've had stuff happening going on. So it, you know, the things drop because real life gets in the way sometimes. But I think it's super important still make that time.
00:42:49:11 - 00:42:52:15
Jessiy
And I think we're good at making that time. Yeah.
00:42:52:17 - 00:43:00:14
Luna
Do you have any fantasies that you've talked about together that you want to explore or things that you sort of like have explored that were a fantasy?
00:43:00:16 - 00:43:23:19
Jessiy
So we've talked about a few that I would really like to do so with, like the more primal side of things we have instead of time, we're going to do it to make sure we do it. I would like us to have just like a full day hunt where we go for a drive up to, you know, a forest or a block of land or something.
00:43:23:19 - 00:43:48:14
Jessiy
And it's just like he tells me to run and I get out of the car and I just run, and it's the whole day sort of him hunting me down. And then another one that we've got, we've talked about is we want to sneak into it like a two story church thing. And then while there's like a sermon or a session happening downstairs, the upstairs fucking and, you know, like impact play.
00:43:48:14 - 00:43:55:20
Jessiy
But like with books and like him talking men have, like, gagging me so I can't make any noise.
00:43:55:20 - 00:44:05:13
Luna
And that's pretty hot. Did either of you grow up religious or. Look, they say God is love. I feel like that would be approved.
00:44:05:14 - 00:44:18:20
Jessiy
That's that's deep love. I don't know, worship. Yeah, maybe I that's his. It's a form of love. And I'm just expressing my love for life and creation.
00:44:18:20 - 00:44:20:05
Luna
And we all have our own.
00:44:20:05 - 00:44:32:13
Jessiy
Way of getting real spiritual. Well that's it. Yeah. And it would never be meant from a place of disrespect. It's just purely, you know, that thrill of doing something we shouldn't be doing.
00:44:32:13 - 00:44:39:18
Luna
Oh, yeah. That's a super heightened naughty I love it. Will you tell us about your relationship to assholes a little bit.
00:44:39:20 - 00:45:11:16
Jessiy
Yeah. So my anal experience is limited because of previous traumas, but I've been working my way up. You know, the sets of training anal plugs. Wake up in sizes. Yeah. So I'm on the third plug in the series now. I'm currently wearing it. Amazing. Yeah, because I do want to get to the point where I can comfortably have anal sex and experience that because that's something that I definitely want to do.
00:45:11:16 - 00:45:43:12
Jessiy
But I also want to do it comfortably and safely and be confident in that. And yeah, definitely anal hooks as well. I've got one coming because I couldn't order until I could get that size comfortably up there. Yeah. So now I can I've ordered it. It's coming. So excited. Like I've, I've already researched and found photos of things, but like I want to try and this one where the hooks in and the rope comes up, it's like braided into my hair and it's like, force visited on me.
00:45:43:14 - 00:45:54:05
Luna
That I would be so curious to hear how that goes. Okay, what about we didn't talk about group sex. Have you had it? Do you want it? Would you be into, like, sex parties? Sex clubs? Is that a thing for you?
00:45:54:07 - 00:46:29:20
Jessiy
Yeah, I've definitely had group sex before. I've had, you know, threesomes and upwards before. It's not something that I really enjoy that much just because for me, like I said before, I need that emotional connection with someone that I'm being intimate with because, you know, because of my past as well. I need to have that trust formed. And so for me, when that's group sex and you can know everyone involved and trust everyone involved, but it lacks that specific moment of intimacy.
00:46:29:22 - 00:46:58:17
Jessiy
Yeah, that's something that's actually really, really big for me is having those intimate moments with someone. And it makes me feel secure and safe. And I just personally don't get that fulfillment from group sex. I would love to go to like a sex club or something like, I have voyeuristic tendencies. I love watching people have fun and, you know, experience each other.
00:46:58:17 - 00:47:04:07
Jessiy
That. Yeah, absolutely. But in terms of involvement, no, not for me.
00:47:04:09 - 00:47:09:03
Luna
Do you watch porn at all? We talked about at the very beginning and then we talked about your homemade porn. But yeah.
00:47:09:05 - 00:47:26:08
Jessiy
Yes, definitely. Like making our own videos that I do watch. Like just normal porn as well. I'm one of those people that I watch porn for the enjoyment of watching. I don't necessarily masturbate to it. I sort of just watch it like it's Netflix. Sometimes.
00:47:26:10 - 00:47:30:12
Luna
Amazing. Also for you, what is normal porn?
00:47:30:14 - 00:48:03:05
Jessiy
Well, anything, I suppose I don't really, there's nothing that I wouldn't really work. Okay. I don't delve into bestiality because I just don't. I love animals, and I don't believe that. That's right. Yeah, but yeah, other than that, nothing is off limits. Group sex, interracial girl and girl voyeurism. I talk about it like it's Netflix, but I've just started binge watching this guy that does like massages and they like progress to sex.
00:48:03:07 - 00:48:22:07
Jessiy
I find that really interesting. I don't so much enjoy, which is really strange, but I don't enjoy so much watching like heavier scenes when it comes to Bdsm sort of style porn. But I enjoy being in them. I don't I don't know why.
00:48:22:09 - 00:48:22:18
Luna
I'm the same.
00:48:22:18 - 00:48:29:12
Jessiy
Way. I do enjoy reading erotica as well, and that's something that I just do for fun as well, like online.
00:48:29:12 - 00:48:31:07
Luna
Or are you like romance novels?
00:48:31:09 - 00:48:44:21
Jessiy
No, I like online. Okay, light erotica is the website or something, but I've been reading this story since I was like 14. Yeah, I love the sensei stuff. So like consensual non consent, I love that.
00:48:44:23 - 00:48:50:17
Luna
Is there anything else about your sex life that we don't know yet that we need to know to have a complete overview?
00:48:50:18 - 00:49:25:08
Jessiy
Probably only that it's probably been the most profound and powerful part of my mental health journey, and that it's given me so much gratification and appreciate creation, life and love. And it's not just sex, you know, sex can be so much more. It can be one of the most powerful tools in your arsenal kind of thing. If you're not a neurotypical person, you know can be your best friend, your worst enemy.
00:49:25:08 - 00:49:30:09
Jessiy
But I firmly believe that it's my best friend.
00:49:30:11 - 00:49:34:02
Luna
What are your hopes for your sexual self going forward?
00:49:34:04 - 00:50:01:04
Jessiy
That I continue to learn and grow, and that I never stop experimenting and exploring, and that I'm always in a safe and comfortable place with a partner that I trust and love, and that we can always continue to grow and explore together. Yeah, that's all I want for my sexual future. There's nothing in particular that, you know, I would strive for.
00:50:01:04 - 00:50:05:18
Jessiy
I just my continual journey for growth and experience.
00:50:05:20 - 00:50:12:16
Luna
If you could go back in time and give younger you a piece of sex advice, what age or ages would you pick and what would you say?
00:50:12:18 - 00:50:49:22
Jessiy
Probably like 12 or 13. And I'd tell me that what's coming is going to be good and bad, that you don't have to be ashamed. You don't need to feel bad. Don't let anyone make you feel like that. And to appreciate every part of your body. Because I have not always had a good relationship with my body. And I think I tell myself that you need to stay strong and to love who you are, because at the end of the day, you are who you are and I am who I am.
00:50:50:00 - 00:50:53:13
Jessiy
And I wouldn't change it. Fuck yeah.
00:50:53:15 - 00:50:56:16
Luna
Jesse, thank you so much for being a guest on Sex Stories.
00:50:56:18 - 00:50:59:19
Jessiy
Now. It's been my pleasure. Thank you so much for having me.
00:50:59:21 - 00:51:02:00
Luna
Do you have a sex question for me?
00:51:02:02 - 00:51:15:22
Jessiy
What has been your favorite sexual experience and then what has been your favorite non sexual experience that led to a surprising sexual experience? Oh oh.
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